I'm still waiting and hoping

Well my couz did her thing again and helped me out.
So I got her to ask Daniel for his help..I love you Daniel!
He said he can get that single line that I crave for but jst give him time..
Now I can smile..jst a little.

I'm still hoping for better news.I can't give up hope jst yet.
Keep praying for me pls.
Thnks Abhi for the talk,and for being so understanding ..making u want to cry and all that.

Imissyousomuch.
Till the next good news,I might or might not blog by then.
PLS PLS PLS..god I need ur help.
arghhh..so frustrating.

Joy and pain

Christmas was good but not great.We did the usual,go to my grandmother's place till the evening then shot over to the grandparents' place.Dinner over there was as usual-boring..I texted Nicholas and also Mahira wayyy over in NZ because of a story my dad made up which made me paranoid.It involved him and Mahira..This time mahira finally got my msg and replied.


On boxing day I drank quite a few glasses of Margarita..yumm.
I tried Samoka or something like that-yuck

On Christmas day,I cried-hard.
On Boxing day,I cried-hard.
Today,I've silently let a tear or two fall while in church and at home..we'll see if I cry hard again for the third night since I found out.

The news?
He left.Probably gone for good..without my email add or his email add to me,he left.All hope lies on a friend back there who might or might not have the important email I need.He left still as sweet as ever,telling her how much he misses me,and how he thinks I am.Sweet.AND HOW MCUH HE WANTS MY EMAIL ADD,my cousin didn't give it to him because?jst tak sempat bagi. :(
Thnks anyway..now help me again rara.
I still remember how he looks,his smile,his face when he's thinking..that cheeky look on his face.OMG..I was so lucky.I shouldn't have left NZ..I shouldn't have.Now look at me..miserable again and longing for a single line that will make me happy again.
I'm trying to stay positive,trying to hope that Daniel will be able to help me..at the same time I want to return to that country which I said I would never return to..That was then,after nearly half the year there I finally realized how much I liked it there and the people I've met.It's crazy,..I had to leave,I asked for it and I got it.
:(

It's my own fault.

Writing this now makes me feel like crying again.It's sad that things had to happen at the last minute.It's so..I don't know.I don't get it at times but I'm happy that it happened.
Now all I can do is hope,and pray..

Daniel you're my only hope..
Mahira,ur so lucky and I'm so terribly jealous.
R,I miss you.How I wish you had FB,that would have been easier.
:(

Till next time.
I hope the next post will be me bringing good new.
Pray for me too..hope for the best.
I need it.
:(

Imissyouuu~

Dizziness

I can honestly say that I finally had fun since coming back here.So Saturday was my friend Debbie's wedding.The mass was ok..but the reception was great.I had a really good time.The whole night I was with Sarah,Matt,Nicky,Joe and Douglas.At times Steph would join us but she was too busy being the bridesmaid and running around.

We(Sarah and I )we asked to hand out those cakes in the box to the guests as there was a shortage in girls?nono..two of the girls who were suppose to be there didn't turn up..Bloody dragons.Having Sarah there was great.It's been awhile since I last saw her..she's so skinny now thanks to her sickness.No worries,she's going to be all good soon enough.

The night started out with me running to the bathroom cos I realised that my ehem was not buckled properly..so it could jst fall anytime. :P Erm so yeah..we all waiting to get in,I was asked to drink mug of beer by Douglas,he insisted that I drink.

Once inside,we dine,and drank even more.(OMG I drank too) yes yes I did.Douglas got Sarah and I wine instead of beer.So in total I drank a mug of beer and a couple of glasses of wine.Soon after the dancing began!!Joe took me up to the dance floor while Matt took Sarah..it was awesome.Later we made Douglas come dance..soon enough everyone was there. :)

Erm.I danced with Joe and Douglas a lot..I think more with Douglas.At first I was kinda malu la wana dance with him but later got comfy.I'm kinda proud of myself for just letting go,not worrying what people might think.So yeah..hooray me.My last dance was with Douglas while Steph watched and commented..warning the guys that they are dancing with her cousins (me included).hehe.

Pictures were taken but none with my hp.The bride looked really nice and the groom was also handsome.There were drunks but no hunks,there were those who were speakingspeaking and some who were so bouncy on the dance floor.Overall,the night was awesome..

After the dinner,we headed over to Subang for mamak.Only me with the guys..Steph puked and nicky was too tired while Sarah had to go home.Mamak was quiet..I even saw Syukri,my old sch mate.

So yes.I had fun..I let myself loose,I didn't give a crap about what people thought of me that night,I was not at all scared to face anyone that night.I'm proud of myself. :D

Xmas is in two days!I'm not really feeling the spirit of Xmas though.

What are u getting your friends and family for Christmas?

In case I don't blog in the next few days..

Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year to all of you.

Blackblackblack

I have no idea what to blog about now.It's totally random now.

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The wedding is tomorrow!I don't know what I'll be wearing and I don't really care at the moment..I'll freak out tmr. :)
My brother and I bought the soon to be husband and wife a box of candles and potpourri..I had a better idea on what to get them but you know..not polite,not an appropriate gift.You know what I'm talking about?No hints just figure it out.

Actually tomorrow will be the very first wedding I'll be attending..ok second,the first was my uncles where I was the flower girl and I was like 2 so that doesn't count since I can't remember it.I watched the video of it last year..man I was tiny.I couldn't remember any of it..I can't believe I did what I did and said what I said..I was born a kpc,penyebuk.There was this one scene where my uncle and aunty came to our table cos you know the whole "go to all the tables and drink thingy" yeah that..so when ppl were saying yam seng. (I don't know how you spell it..) I was the one who said it at that table...ME!Could hear me so clearly.Damn sibuk.wtf.

Moving on..so yeah the wedding.I wonder how it'll be.It's going to be good to see some of the people I got to make friends with a year ago this time..we're not close but they are really cool people.See how..having fun at the wedding dinner will be a bonus.I need to get out more..I need fun.I crave it.

I'm learning to let go of the pass..even though it's like a week ago.
I know it's foolish to even think about it.Taken,I might get bashed for that.
All I know how to do is the "dick kick" and nothing else can help me.

Bahhh!Why must life be so difficult.
My job is my life and it's pretty tough
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I feel like a slap..I need one.Or maybe a reality check.
Hare gave me one,but I need more!I'm effin pathetic.

Be happy people.
Its the Xmas season.Be merry and have fun.

I miss
David,Redo,mummyReshma and daddyRakesh,Adriene and babyLauren,Daniel and cheekyRicardo.
funnyMartina and Jordana.
My auntyMonica,and couzMahira..
I miss my work,FC.
I miss the accent..oi Brasil.

I have pics!
but it'll be up in a couple of days or so. :D

He said she said

I was on the phone with Hare just a couple of minutes ago and he said some things that kinda hurt but also made me realize that I was being foolish..AGAIN!

Hare:Why do u always make excuses for people?
Me:I don't know..I do that a lot.

He's right..I have to learn to accept the fact that it's not how it seems anymore.There are a lot of maybes in my head,excuses for him,but I don't think its necessary to care or bother anymore unless an effort is made by that person.

So I might be going down to Kuantan on Tuesday..and bloodyHare can't drive.Banned by parents it seems.Ish.We can't go on bicycles cos both of us are fatter than usual and will probably cause a freak accident.*touchwood*
It was good to talk to him again..I was miserable the whole day and he made me laugh again.Goodboy.

Hare:Good thing I left you.
Me:Yea..good thing you left me..or else..(censored)
:P

What to do now?I have a wedding to attend tomorrow, Kuantan on tues, Xmas on thurs, but what about time for the friends here?All so busy for poor old me..boohoo.
My future is undecided,unknown,undiscovered, and so blur.I'm not sure what's going to happen next year.Will I be going back to NZ (yes pls) or will I be going to a local University.It all depends on my mom and dad..dad of course wants me to go to NZ but my mom says..well she has lots to say.

I'm worried about so many things that I think my pressure pulak will go up.Impossible?nothing is impossible in my world.I get lucky at the wrong time,I get foolish luck most of the time but I am normally neutral when it comes to this things.Ish.Try being me for a day and you'll see how miserable my life is..
I have nvr really have fun cos I can't seem to let loose.I worry too much,I worry about what people think of me or how I act..and I am afraid to let my guard down cos then I might get hurt.I'm more complicated than the next girl.

Hare:Come party with me and I'll make everything loose.
Me:Yeah sure..eww..everything loose?
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so tact full.

I want so much to happen.
But first I want my dad to be ok,my family to be happy and for us to go wherever is better than where we are now.

Oh!I still haven't watch Twilight.I'm so lame. :(
Nobody in my family wants to watch it and my friends are all busy.
:'(
How??watch myself?but who will I talk to while watching it?who will i be complaining to while watching?
ISHHHHHHHH!

off time..karipap waiting for me.yuummm.
big ass fatty signing off.

Baby News!

I forgot this great news.
Reshma (the girl I worked with) has given birth!!Baby Reva R.Shetty was brought into the world on the 15th of Dec.
Yeaaahh!
I'm an Aunty now..I'm claiming that for myself. :)

I'm so happy for both Rakesh and Reshma.
and I miss you too very much.
take care.

Awesomeness is nowhere to be found

I spent the whole day cleaning again!
No life..
social life-fail
love life-unknown
family life-ok la

What am I to do?I'm so bored..yes friends have said "come back,we miss you".I'm back here already but no one is free to spend time with me. :(
Ashraf is away but coming back to take me out next week,I'm probably meeting Alana at her place on thurs,Husna said she wants to come back jst to spend time with me and Amanina has made contact and wants to meet up too..oh PeiHann left me a "hey" on FB.

"Hey" PeiHann.

Well anyway..I'll be turning 19 in a month.16th of January this girl turns 19, a lot more older but not a single person believes I'm that old.Flattering but it's annoying when they treat you like a child.What should I do when i'm 19?Party?(something I've nvr really done) Go back and celebrate with the people there?I don't know.My dad will be 50 next year..January as well.. :)
We're all growing older..I can't believe I'm going to be 19 so soon.Maybe I'll shoot up next year?Maybe I won't have such bad luck next year?Maybe I'll get to be with the one I want next year?Maybe a lot of things..I just hope for the best really.
This year has been a roller coaster ride and it only got better towards the end..I just wish I can have a great year..with sch,the family,friends,new friends,work and the guy who still hasn't text ed,emailed.. :(

WHATEVER!
I don't want to think about it.It's heartbreaking and a waste of time going all negative..I rather spend time losing all this effing weight and having a great Xmas.
U'll see u ass..ur making me wait.No girl should have to wait and be put through this.Ish.
Say TAK NAK ok.

My blog post today was suppose to be short,sweet and simple..but instead it's sour,oh so sob sob, and pathetic.
But..I'll be alright..it'll be sweet.
WHATEVER!

Moving on.I just spent a couple of hours watching 90210.It's okay..I'm not so crazy about it like some people can be.I find that girl who acts as Silver so pretty and that guy who acts as Ty..super handsome.God is so creative..why did he have to make people so beautiful..too bad all of us can't be that way ae.


Des' post on FB.

Des:You know you're a dick?
Dear Des,no I'm no dick..I don't have one and don't require one. :)

I'm so tired.
Malas to wait but I want to..pathetic
Why does Kathleen always have this problem whenever she leaves a place?

Those who are friends with Hare..have u guys gone to check up on him?
He said he's got Dengue..
I can't help you hun..jst accompany you by texting..I'm sry..and stop asking me questions.
Get well soon u ass. :)

"Wedenesday"-R

I'm back home

Kathleen is finally back in Malaysia!
Am I happy?I guess but nothing has happened to make me feel that way.I touched down on that Friday night..and ever since it's been cleaning and worrying and lot's more that doesn't involve having fun and relaxing.

I haven't been blogging much huh..been kinda busy with friends,family and a certain guy..who hasn't been in contact with me since the day I left him at the sidewalk. :(
I miss him so bloody much and there's nothing I can do about it.
I think I might be going back to Nz to do Uni..I really don't mind.First,the education and life is much better there and second it might give me another chance with him..if it's possible I'll take that chance.

Anyway..let's share more sad stories shall we?
So i've been in NZ and usually I don't eat so much but as it got colder and I got happier I started eating more.I am not FREAKING HUGE till u can't recognise me but yes my cheeks are now more puffy.Since the day I landed at Klia till yesterday,all i've been hearing is "eh so fat ar now,put on weight already".
First was my dad..he said i'm "prosperous" already.
Then my aHmah..my dad's mom.When she saw me she said "Eh put on weight already ar" but sui ar still. :(
Thanks for the compliment after the insult ahmah..
So right after that I got pissed and didn't talk much.I then decided not to go out at all till i lose abit of weight.However..my lovely parents decided to make a trip to my other grandmother's hse.wtf
My aunt saw me and said i'm still the same only thing different is i'm fat now.I smiled and walked away..then she saw me standing by myself staring outside and asked if i was angry..I ofcourse said NO.I tell you,if they weren't ppl that I sayang a lot,I would have gone all rude on them..sad hearing that over and over again.
My grandma was ok..she didn't say anything bad.Later my uncle came and said that i'm fat also and this time my bratty sis tambah tambah salt to my wound.
I was practically fighting the urge to yell at the both of them but didn't.Whenever he talked to me I don't talk back,jst gestures and shit only..

Later on my mom was with grandma,I walked by and then she said that my grandma thinks I look really nice..I jst hmm then went to the hall and then I don't know..tears jst started pouring out.
My dad came to comfort me with the littlest effore possible.My big bro was like "chill la lynn"..and bratty sis was asking me what the hell is wrong with me.I could have kicked her on the spot if I wasn't a good.

But then it was dinner time..whn I wanted to put the spoon into my mouth I felt so fat and shitty for thinking that I should put food in my mouth after getting those remarks.I started to cry again..this time infront of them..oh my uncle wasn't there already ofcourse.My aunt came and asked why I'm crying..My gosh..why is it so difficult for them to figure it out.They probably think it's because of some guy as usual.Ish

So I've lost weight since I left..but then it's not enought I suppose.Before this I was always underweight and now that my weight is well enough for my height,it's not good for anyone else.I'm damn sad,I don't know why they are like that..they make jokes about me and my weight as though I don't have feeling and whateve they say about me won't hurt me at all..some family they are.

I'm going off.Enough of sharing my sob stories.

I'm still waiting for you,
a call,a text,an e-mail..
anything will do as long as u jst contact me.

I miss you.

thetitleisnotimportant.

Yesterday was a good day.

I was out with the cousin Mahira and the german Carlotta.

Overall it was a productive day..

I shoped,I window shopped aswell,I painted my lil sis' face,I dined at my aunts place and also my cousin and I had a good convo all together.I told her about the guy,the sch,the people,the job and we discussed about the difference between Malaysia and NZ.The guys,the people,the life.

I managed to spend almost $100.I have never done that.I only bought two tops,a cardi and a scarf.Ish..everytime I had to swipe my card I'll feel more guilty for spending money. :( I was coaxed to buy a dress..it's so cheap >.<

So at work they were having locals day which I'm not sure what they get la..but I was suppose to help a friend with face painting but after my unsuccessful paint job,I resigned.wtf.I destroyed my sis' face..It wasn't so bad she still looked cute but I just didn't want to end up doing the same for some lil kid.Face painting-FAIL!end of career.

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Also yesterday I was watching a couple of trailers.Oh wait..have u heard that a lot of people were disappointed over Twilight?(maybe I have mentioned it before)I suppose the majority have read the book..it makes a difference if you've read the book.I watched the trailer long time ago and was kinda worried about it cos I knew that a few of the scenes were wrong and I don't like the actress la..I just don't think she's sesuai.

Anyways..here are a couple of movies I can't wait to watch.

17 again!

Zac Efron is in it..still looking good.

Dance Flick..

Seems really hillarious. :D

and F U.

Screw football.

I can't wait.2009 is going to be awesome.I think.

There's another one called Adventureland,Kristin Steward is in it.hmm.

so many movies!Which will you watch?

No more work and sch. :)

Today was my final day of work.swt.
I didn't complain this time about my shift..I didn't mind it cos it's the last day and the last time for me to hangout and work with most of them there.
Let me tell u..It was awesome.
Actually my weekend was great!How was yours?

I looked,stared,and well a lot more but the most important thing is..

He knows I exist and..it made my day,my weekend. :)

I shall keep mum about it first.

till next time.

btw

2 WEEKS TILL I LEAVE!

Stress

I'm stressing out so I'm trying to cool down by..visiting people's blog. :)
Yest was History papers.I think I did well..
We had two essays and one resource booklet to do within 3hours.Stress I tell you but I managed to finished before time..

So before I entered the hall my history teacher came up to me and told me not to worry and she knows that I'll do well.Nice not?She's like one of my fav teacher here...her class is always nice.She's no mere history teacher that bores you to death.
I love history and this is the first time I have a teacher that I like and doesn't bore me..ok that's a lie.I know a few times I almost fell asleep in her class but that was cos I was so tired..not her fault la.

Back to the paper..Opened two of the essay booklets and I found that there were a couple of I could actually do..but I picked the ones I did before and another which I have a lot of facts on.So yes..I think I did well.I must pass all of them.I can't afford to loose the credits if not then I don't pass L3 at all..what a waste of time then.

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I was thinking that I am going to miss being in Queenstown.This thought shocked me as it would have to my family.Why?I have always been the negative thinker and always complaining about being here and always say I can't wait to go home.Now, I kinda feel sad because by leaving here I wouldn't get to see all my workmates anymore.I can't see Reshma and Adrienne's baby, I can't attend Darlyn and Alex's wedding and I won't hear Redo calling me "kid" and Aman calling the same thing as Redo but in Hindi..and I just wont see them...anymore?I'll be in Malaysia and they'll be here.It won't be the same.I won't see them whenever I go to that store near my house or even during the long weekends. :(
I am happy that I'm going home..I'm glad but I'll miss being here.I don't like Qtwn that much, it's just the people that I made friends with.

I think that I like being away from Malaysia..yeah.I think that's it.I miss my family and friends back home so much but I still like being in a different place not having to worry about people judging me because of what I wear..especially because I've tanned skin,i'm brown thanks to the many sunburns, and so they think I'm a Malay girl.That's ridiculous..Maybe I should wear a crucifix all the time?Maybe I should just tattoo a cross on my forehead?
I hate it...Sometimes I just ignore but the more those Malay ladies with tudung acting all so high and mighty look at me and me knowing that they're judging me..I just feel like yelling at them or laying the smack down on them.Maybe go all THE ROCK on them.wtf.
I remember this one time I was out with my dad at Giant.I was wearing shorts and sleeveless top or something like that when I passed by this tudung wearing lady who was selling like those Islam stuff..and when I passed her she looked at me and then called me...she said something la but I was walking, trying to keep up with my dad.Why should I layan her anyway.Fool.
Geram I tell you.
That wasn't all..later when we came back down she looked at me again with that "you should be ashamed" look.I told my dad of course about the lady as we were passing her,my dad stared at her and told me to just buat bodoh la..stupid people think everyone brown is like them.
Once in camp,I was 7 and we had to go for dinner.We had to dress nicely la..so malays must use their traditional clothes.I went,jeans and shirt (I have no traditional clothes whatsoever) and met this girl who was in my group and she said "Eh you ni apesal tak pakai baju kurung?Kan cikgu kata mesti pakai..kena la you nanti."I was like wtf (I didn't use swear words then but then..yea)I told her I wasn't Malay and so obviously wouldn't have to use it..she didn't believe me of course.Pissed off I walked away.

I should think that she being in my group and knowing my name would make it obvious to her..plus my cacat use of Bm at that time.

but nvm..it's alright.I can't blame them.I am the way I am,brown and maybe look like a malay to many.
It's ok..It's alright.I don't blame you.

End of topic..ish sensitive nye!
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So when I go home I'll have to face that again..oh and you know guys here don't do that irritating mouse like sounds guys back home do when they see pretty girls.That's nice..all they do here is call you and I don't know..but that's it la.
Before I finish..I really am going to miss being here but I have the feeling that this isn't goodbye.I think I'm coming back here..maybe next year?If things don't work out for Nic in school then maybe she'll have to come back here.
Maybe that will be nice..or not.I must not worry now..I should look forward to Sydney,Singapore and then home. :)

I have a knot in my head,too much stress

I was dreaming of history facts,I was dreaming of being away from the people here,

I'm definitely going to miss this place.

I have to see Moritz,Henry,Svea and Carlotta before I leave.MUST!

I'm going to miss them. :(

Don't get me wrong,

I'm not racist,I don't hate Malays,I have tons of good friends who are Malays

I just don't like that some judge me like that,I don't say anythng bout u pun

they don't know what I am also.

Ask or find out first la..ish.

To my friends,

I can't wait to see you guys..we must hangout..a lot. :P

Till you get sick of me and wish I'll leave again. :)

Hare,remember you must come meet me alright?It's a date..bluek.

and Mohd Ashraf..I hate you now.I tau u tak baca nih but it's ok..I still hate you.

Twilight date still on k eventhough I hate you..be my driver.

;)

Twilight update

Just read Ashraf's message and he said that..

TWILIGHT is coming out on the 29th of this month in Malaysia. :(

HOW???wait for me la Ash..u promised to watch with me..but noooo he's going with Zureen pulak.ish ish.

Jealous I tau...not cos ur going with her but cos ur watching before me and not with me!

U promised!

Haih..I'll be the outdated one.sad case lynn.

This just in..

Twilight..the anticipated movie of the year (for me) is...

A FAILURE!

according to PerezHilton,a couple of film critics and such have gave it 2and a half stars,some say it is a poor job.

WHAT??

I've been waiting for the movie to come out after reading the books over and over again.This is just not what I needed.Actually to be fair I myself kinda thought it wouldn't be that good..but It won't stop me from watching it.

They don't follow exactly like the book and certain scenes are placed in the wrong area.Sad betul.

Try again then..they are all set for the next two movies so hopefully they'll do a better job. *crosses fingers* :)

Go read the books though..it's bloody awesome.

and there's also the forth book.,breaking dawn.

NO MORE ENGLISH!

I'm finally done with my English exam! clap clap clap

It was..I don't know.I know I did what I could..first reaction?I was in panic after looking at the essay questions.None like I've practice before. :(

But then I thought what the heck might as well just do it,get it over with..

I spend more than an hour on the novel,then an hour or so on the film then finally did the unfamiliar texts which I kinda decided to leave out if I didn't have time.

I DID IT THOUGH!

I managed to get through it,didn't quite finish it but It was 80% completed.So now I shall pray that I pass my English papers..I have too.

It's not that easy here.You might say "hey,it's just English"..It's not just English.It's tough and u have to get the structure right and all that..We don't have this in Malaysia!

I've been studying really hard for English the Malaysian way (according to Des)..last minute..but still,very very hard studying went on..I was even stressed out,headache pun ada..plus it was that time of the month and that made matters worse..

the night before the exam!

Oh look Alana!I'm using the pencil case u gave me. :P

From not so bad writing(above) to
ugly writing....

Note my poor photography skills..the shadow.
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So three more papers!

Counting it down..LuckyboyDes has only two more..and it ends on Mon.ish!
His plans?Saturday-zorb or something like that
Wed-bungee with a Danish gal *raises eyebrow*
Haih he has so many interesting this lined up..even has exchange student camp..me?
Exams,then mini touring with the family then we jet off to sunny Sydney on the 10th!woohoooo.

I can't wait..i can't wait.

Guess what?I might do the bungee..arghh!

I'm serious.It's the Kawarau Bungee here in Queenstown and it looks scary..too me.

I have something else to blog about but I'll leave it for later. :)

TWENTY DAYS MORE!

I DID IT!

I finally changed my template after telling Alana that I have no time.
Why?I wanted to remake this blog and all that because the last time when I tried to get it to go back to my older skin provided by Blogspot..it just didn't work.I don't know why it did today.
It's both a good thing and also a bad thing..I'm wasting my time here when I should be studying hard for my exams next week.I'm not even ready for any of the subjects.

My timetable:
19th-English
24th-Mathematics with Statistics
25th-History
28-Chemistry.

:(

Off to do English now..(not as easy as back home!!)

p.s:Alana now I have the comment space..no need to use the small ass c-box. :)

wtf

I just found out that an old friend's old blog has the exact same skin as mine.Her old blog la.
I can't wait to move this thing.It's...just not right anymore.
I want a normal skin with my own header,with no limited space and everything just me.Ish.
This blog has gone cuckoo dy that's why I wana change it..
So the import and export thing has to be done in order to have my posts in the new blog.
And you know what?This is my 3rd post in nearly three hours.My own record..the most I've blogged in a day.

clap clap clap
*pats back*

I should be studying for finals..NOW.
I promise this will be my last post of the er hour..or so..Maybe tonight?
We'll see..

Now have you watched the video(s)?No?You're super lame now.

I have videos.What do u have?

Remember the famous (for me atleast) Numa Numa song..That song u saw that lil chicken dancing to?I can't believe it only became famous cos of that show.Ish.My siblings and I found out through a couple of ppl from MMU Melaka.My big brother was studying there before and his friends made a video for the song..*points below*



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Here's the new one Rihana sang for..ish ish.

Personally I don't like it.I think they ruined the song.

They don't look like they are really singing..but they are the original singers of this song..O-ZONE.

Kinda gay la they all..and that dance!What is up with that?Dragostea Din Gay?Not my words k..someone wrote it in the comment box.Kesian.

But I do like the song.Oh..don't listen to the English Version of it cos it's terrible.It makes the lyrics seem so stupid..it's better if we don't understand what they are saying..hello and salute is enough. :)

Hello and salute!

Forgetful?

Just got back from English tutorials...and you know what..
Yesterday I found my English folder that I didn't notice went missing till the day itself.Good thing it was in my tutor class and not in some random area.wtf.
Today Des msged me so I was texting him on the way to sch and then I remembered holding it when I entered class but then mid way through it I realised it was GONE!
I think some people noticed that I was fidgeting away..and then this guy suddenly looked at me and said "It's over there" while pointing at the floor.Dammit!How did it get there?Did my hp suddenly grow wings and flew away from me?
I really don't remember me letting it go or putting it down.Seriously.
Yesterday the folder then today my hp.Ish.
Next thing you know I'll forget to show up for exams.*touch wood*.

I have a craving to do a bit of a kick ass essay for English-film and novel.Later I have History tutorials (yeah) which I will attempt to do a lil bit of Resource Q's.Love love love history!
I finally get how to tackle the last two bits of the resource q's.Kinda tricky but I'll manage.Wish me luck k? :)

Till later...

Did u watch the video?No?U're so lame.

Funny Malaysians

FunnyMalaysians.

Watch this..If u have a sick sense of humour then you'll love it. :)

.......and they say I talk cock
:P

I'm bloody pissed off.

Talking to my dad on MSN now and telling him about the whole incident between my mom and I.Damn irritating I tell u when I have to recall it and explain myself.It's a whole lot of misunderstanding that involves me not cursing and swearing but my mom claims I did curse and swear when it was our daily "prayer time".
I won't go into details as I'm sure no one will want to know and I will get even more pissed off my head will explode anytime.
ISH!
This whole thing was like 3 weeks or so ago..3 bloody weeks!She did say a thing or two to me but in a cold manner.Big shock?NO.Typical la.

My dad is on my side though.He thinks that's just how my mom is.I feel bad for talking about my mom like that.Ever since I came here we've gotten much closer..shopping and all together.So now I can't go shopping.I don't have my shopping buddy anymore... and I just can't talk to her. :(
I use to hate people ranting in their blogs when it's their sappy time but look at me now.I don't care though.

I have a long list(non existent list) of things to buy here before I go home.The clothes here are so cheap u'll go gaga over the prices I tell u.A really nice top can be bought for $19.90.*sigh*.I'll miss the things here..and the scenery.As the day passes by,I feel kinda bumped out bout going back cos I won't be able to see the people I've come to call my friends.
Some will go back to Brazil,England,Germany,Argentina,India,and Netherlands..so far away.I'll miss them all and kinda hope they don't forget me.I have thing this where I think I'm so easily forgotten for some reason.It's weird and stupid I have to say.

OHOH
Spring/summer dresses are as low as $39.90.*cries*
I want not one not two...but as many as I can get.
Ohoh..
Dad said not to change my NZD for RMs as the change rate is lower now.WHY MALAYSIA?U're suppose to welcome me with open arms not with low current exchange rates!wtf.

Dear friends..
I promised some of u bday presents and I shall bring them home in a huge luggage bag (mostly my things in it la ) :P
jkjk..but yes I'll do my best to get u guys things.I am not an ungrateful person.
Hare,how to get u stuff?Everything I get u,u can buy even more..but I still will get u something even if is is a New Zealand made.........:D

Now I'm in a much better mood.*exhales*.
I better go now.Still talking to my dad on MSN..talking about shopping weih.Not bad la my dad.
He said I'm the only one who will not say "I love u" when he says it.It's true?I think la.I'm not sure why.It's just not normal.We don't practice saying 'I LOVE YOU S' in our house/family so it's weird.
It's the distance that's why..ish.Distance will make things weird.Don't do it.hahaha.

I forgot

I forgot..

No I didn't forget about my blog.Though I haven't been blogging I have been cruising in,checking out the c-box and other people's blog.I can't believe I didn't post a single thing since er..27th of Oct is it?yes..
Today was the last day of sch for us seniors..Next week will be out study leave/ tutorial week and then it's exams. :/
I'm excited that it's the last day but not of exams.I like every other normal person out there hate exams.I can't bare sitting for so long without making a sound or doing anything else besides reading/calculating/scribbling..and whatever else we do during exams.Aiya..wan't t fart also I must tahan.

Oh oh I did that yesterday during history.Tahan.I'm having gastric problems but i'm not gassy k.Still it doesn't help much with me having it.Yes I'm shamless..I'm telling the world I tahan kentut at times.Well what do u expect me to do?Let go?I said I'm shameless to tell but I don't go doing shamless things like..that. :P
I'm probably not making sense as this is completely random.I didn't plan on posting anything at this time but then I saw *inhales* Alana's msg on my c-box and then found her blog,her mom's and her sis' *exhales*fuhh.
The power of the internet and my quick thinking (perasan).

I will try my best to change my blog soon.I really want to get this over and done with cos I'm not happy with it now.It is cacat already.I can't change my template to just the normal types anymore If u get what I mean.It's just stuck to the DIY once.I'm not happy with the skin cos it squashes my page but I do love the pic. :D

I'll blog again tonight..I have things to say.
Maybe funny things this time?-Promoting myself:
Kathleen has a great sense of humour for those who don't know her..
She sometimes takes it too far or to the next level.Funny facial expressions and flying hand movements are guaranteed. :P

Quoting Russell Peters (I love his jokes)

"Somebody gonna get a hurt real bad".

Iwanttomove

Going to move my blog soon..soon means probably after my exams which is in three weeks. :(
I hate exams..especially this one as it's gona be so new to me.NCEA exams..wtf.
I need credits as I hv none..ok not none but it's almost nothing..I need it.Without it,I cant get into Uni next year which means I'll have to do foundation again or something like that..Its pathetic.I have to work harder..

Oh..I'm into that pussycat dolls song "When I grow up".This is not me at all.I don't like them..for certain reasons but this time I just want to listen to that song over and over again.

The purpose of this post is to say I'M MOVING SOOOOOON...when I get the whole import export thing right and when i'm stress free. :)

Dunedin trip

Dunedin trip

Destination:Dunedin,NZ
Total travel time:5hrs or less.

We (Carlotta,Jana and myself) set off to the bus er not station more like pick up spot in town early in the morning..7something la.It so happens that I leave not quite far from town and my mom was to lazy to send me by car so I had to walk for like 10mins or 15mins with my luggage looking like an idiot the entire time.Luckily Jana spotted me and her host dad offered me a ride.YEAH!


Once at the "bus stop",we waited for the other two to come.Carlotta came but without Svea.Anyway that's not important..the important thing is that I completely forgot about my camera.wtf.I'm off to a new place with new friends with no camera in hand.It's my fault and also my mom was rushing me and left it on the dining table.Way to go Kathleen..now blame your mother.*sigh*
It was alright though,three cameras were there,they all offered to snap pics for me and send to me.We picked up Svea at Frankton and the trip started..


No pictures were taken inside the bus..we're not big cam whores. :) The whole journey was ok..I spend my time chatting with Jana and sharing music between each other-her mp3 and my iPod but then she said she preferred my songs which made me proud..I have good taste??Mostly I spent time with my bf (my story book).Usually I would get all dizzy when reading while in a moving vehicle but I don't know why that didn't happen that day.Good though.The trip went by kinda quickly..




Our bus


We made like five stops?Yes possibly that many..There was one place where they had a clock up on the mountain..I don't know how it operates but the time was correct and it looks like your normal clock just that it's on the mountain.Damn cool ok.



Lawrence


Made a stop at Lawrence and the picture above was taken all because of the German flag on the shop.Well spotted Kathleen informed her German mates and one just had to take a picture of it..we were up on a hill at the time,right in front of a church which was kinda abandoned.I walked up the hill with a cheese roll in hand and half praying I don't slip or fall cos' it was kinda steep..plus I had Svea beside me who always falls or slips..she scares me when she walks at times..
Next I don't know where we were..once it was about 12++ we reached Dunedin,the sun was up,and I finally let go off my book. (no more nerdy mode)Once we got our down,well I went down before anyone else..I don't know why.Their backsides all too heavy or they're waiting for something?Anyway, the bus driver started talking to me as though he knows me but of course you won't go being rude to him for nothing so I talked to him like normal also ..he was really nice.(I later found out that I did know him through my aunt and would have gotten a free ride with her help,,ohwell).

Now for the exciting part..getting confused and kinda lost...but we were rescued!A policeman was around the corner from where we stood.I told him friends and Svea was mumbling about how she wishes the guy would just give us a lift to out backpackers and the next minute the guy reverses his car and asks if we're lost..*big smile*
Jana went to talk to him while the rest of us stood behind and started to think about how it would be great to get a ride or whatever else la..gatal kan?So then after the two talked, he looked at all four of us and asked us if we wanted a ride...we looked at each other and all shamelessly said,"yes,of course!".Carlotta was left to sit infront with the policeman..eh the guy not bad looking also ok.Got muscle also..whoa I tell you I was,actually I don't know how to express how I felt which is stupid cos it's only a policeman's car which didn't have all the police car look at all..we were in a Ford something..cool car..fast too.Bloody man was driving so fast the whole time.I was sitting between Jana and Svea and at one point I turned to smile at Jana at something she said and when I did that there was this guy walking pass across the street looking and he smiled back.Perasan la.

Being gatal and lame we couldn't help ourselves in the car..we started to flirt with the cop and he invited us to a party at night..bwahahaha.*winks*
Ok..that was a complete lie.What we did was take pictures in the car.I looked like a shit head in the pictures but hey..whatever.We took one of Carlotta who was in front but didn't get the guy in the pic..only got his arm (muscles).:P



Jana,I'm special cos I'm a brunette,Svea


It was cold..that's why u see us zipped up till we look like we have no necks.Let me introduce you to my friends first k..Jana is 17 and is from Germany.She's really smart and matured..and is in University now.It's kinda soon for her cos normally they the German only graduate from high school at the age of 18/19.Svea is from Netherlands and is also 17.Not single-her bf is in the army..woot.She's really cool and funny and on this day was the first time I hung out with her..didn't know her before that.Carlotta who isn't in the picture is also 17 (yes I'm the oldest and shortest..boohooo) is German as well but still in high school.She is definitely funny and the trip wouldn't have been fun without her being there. :)


Back to the story..geez this is getting long.Ok so on the way we were wondering if the backpacker we'll be staying at is a dodgy one but when we got there..we were actually quite impressed.It looked good and out room was great..perfect.Four beds,with a heater and the room was so clean and tidy..we were overlooking the main road and could see the town centre from out room.If we do change with the curtains open,people will be able to see us for sure.Why am I telling you this?Svea..that girl.She woke up and wanted to go bathe or something.So she was facing the road outside and took off her bra and well you get my point I hope.I was there but didn't bother though..free show for whoever was outside.hahaha


On the first day we..

Walked around by ourselves with the help of the map.Jana was the one in charged to guide us.She handpicked herself and I didn't mind cos I'm one sesat person.I can get lost very easily. =D
We walked to the Octagon,then found so many Subways.We made out way to the University where we didn't really know where we were,the place was so big ya know.The Botanical Garden was next and right after that we made our way to Baldwin Street cos there is where you can find the steepest street in the world.After walking so far and so long,Svea and I were worn out and wanted to get a bus back after the road watching..so we did that and had to wait for 10mins for a bus.Next they (Carlotta and Jana) suggested we visit the museum in town but I suggested we go to the beach..they didn't want cos they said we should go the day we are suppose to leave and blabla..Disappointed but didn't show it.Then Carlotta saw the paper that says the museum closes at five and it was 4.45pm that time and we were far away from town so YES the beach it was.



The bus driver was shit,bloody rude and like didn't know what he was doing at times.So I had to go tell him we wanted to go to the beach instead and paid him a dollar more..We got to the beach and all was good but I was hungry la.
The weather was so good and it was the perfect day to be at the beach.We walked from the spot we were dropped off till far off somewhere in the beach..walk without talking and occasionally jumping in the water.Then we climb the sand mountain..(I have no idea what it's called ok) and sat there for sometime just enjoying the view and sun..
At night we bought a few things for breakfast and out snacks when we walk about.Then off to Subway for dinner and then home.Day one finish..

Day two was when we went for our Cadbury Factory Tour,and then we visited the boring Railway Station and then went on the Wildlife Tour.(I got to sit next to a cute German for a few minutes).:)
The last night was the best.We made out dinner and talked a lot.Then the German couple who was living in the same place as we were came home and we made friends with them.They were speaking German and I kinda felt left out and one point.Svea could understand a little bit.We talked,laughed and then moved on to the bedroom.Jana was with my iPod (she used it more than I did the whole trip) then she fell asleep while the rest off us read books and looked through photographs.At one point Jana started to snore..seriously!It was ok but then it got annoying and Svea wanted to throw a shoe at her.Later we all decided to sleep but Svea and I couldn't..why?Carlotta was snoring!!It wasn't like how Jana was before that..it was louder and so annoying.Svea started shouting "MAN!Is that Jana?".I told her it was Carlotta and directly after that Carlotta shot up and started to mumble something and called me..I couldn't help but laugh and continued like that till Jana woke up. =D

Again I began to laugh non stop till Jana had to shoosh me.Jana went to sleep on Carlotta's bed and we all talked a few mins then Svea said that we should go to sleep which we did while Jana kept Carlotta awake so that she wont start snoring.We slept and I had a bloody nightmare..I dreamt I had only had $100+ in my account and got so worked up bout it and my dad said people cheated me off my money and that he was going to sue the backpackers....Only a dream but when I woke up I quickly went to check how much money I had in my back account.Oh Internet there is free!and fast..

Nothing much on the day we had to leave..it rained.We walked in the rain..got a ride to the museum in the morning from the German lady.Then at 1 something we left Dunedin..

*pause for dramatic effect*


Pathetic

Now for the rest of the pictures.

the first night

the morning before we had to leave

At the Gardens

The steepest road

Carlotta demonstrating how steep the road is



At the beach..







Wildlife Tour...

Carlotta took this picture through the binoculars

Sunset :On the way back from the WildlifeTour

That's all I suppose..

Friendships were made and some were made stronger.

Jana left a week later and I'm still haven't heard from her.Must be busy with University.

I'm waiting for another trip..planning another with new people.:) Can't wait.