U shud know

As you can see I havent been updating my blog..looks like I probably wont anytime soon...

For now.am doing ok..just have no time for this...
sooooooo


BYE!

New beginning

In a week time I'll b going back to Uni for my second sem.Yes I'm very excited bout 2nd sem but also worried at the same time.Things are going to change,people are going to change and also the situations.
Some are now moving on to their first year of Deg,congrats while others will either be continuing what they are doing or repeating.My results came out last week and well I did really well I suppose..could have done much better but atleast I got a good grade.

In a week,more people will b enrolling to the uni,and some are re entering.(damnnnn) the unwanted is coming..
Second sem I heard is always the most exciting sem of the year.Next sem we'll have cultural night and even prom(I can't waiiiitttttt!) that'll b my first prom since I didn't go for my high sch one knwing it would suck and I heard it did...very predictable and I dont regret not going pun.

Nex sem things have to change in me too..I have to be nicer to people,and find new people to be around with..get better friends.For now,I can't really trust the people I'm around.I'm not sure if they're backstabbing me or not..I'm not sure who are those people who have been spreading rumours about me or even talking bad about me just cos they're not happy with the new friends I've gained throughout last sem..it's not fair on me but what can I do right?People tend to talk,even if they're not sure if what they're saying is true or false.

It hurts,it annoys me as well but then again...I can't do anything about it.Prove them wrong maybe?I can't make everyone happy..I like the new people I'm always with..they make me laugh,they're really nice to me..i like that.Sure they arent perfect but atleast they care about me.

I dont want things to change too much,I don't want to lose friends,even though I've lost one good one to a mistake on one part..I just hope we'll patch things up again.I do forgive you..but you have to forgive yourself and be the friend you were to me then...

Miss piggy is coming..I hate this.
Mr right or not is going to be changing his ways.
Mr Ithinki'msocool is also changing,course that is.which is a stupid move...he doesnt see how running doesn't always help.
MissA is now very happy and I'm happy for her too...nex sem will be hard on the both of us..but together we will fight off "evil".

I know this post probably doesn't make sense to many but I really don't have lovey dovey stories to share like a lot of you might.I don't have exciting stories to share,I don't have news about the new things in life or travels like some..at the moment..I'm just a very dull person who craves for fun and love. :P

My love life is well..not as lovely as can be YET.It's only in it's early stages so it's more of a like like life.It's going great at the moment.I don't want to speak much about it cos well..I don't want to get my hopes up and go all lovey lovey now..I'm making room for disappointment.I am just trying to be careful,i'm not ready to get hurt again.
He understands and he feels the same way..he was hurt not long ago too.
So for now..my like like life is going smoothly and will talk about it when I'm sure about it.

BTW...
how do u feel/how are u suppose to react when u find out someone you used to knw whn you were younger is now a mother?and she is younger than you/your age/a couple of years older than you..and you knw that it's just too soon?

WHY WHY WHY

WHY IS THIS HAPPENING TO ME?
WHY WHY WHY?

I NEED A BREAK!
I NEED FUN!
I NEED YOU TO TELL ME/EXPRESS YOURSELF
I NEED THE BITCH TO STAY AWAY!

Home!

I'm HOME!
been back since 2something am on Tues and haven't had fun as yet.
I've just been bummin around the house,going online and chatting with people plus getting calls from Esther now and then.
It's good to hear from her even if she's here with her old friends. We're all suppose to go out next week,I can't wait..I realllllllly want to go out. (can't you jst see how excited and eager I am? )

Ben's coming home this weekend so then the whole family is going to be together once more.Then he can join the rest,Navin,Esther and I..and probably a few others when we go out.I CANT WAIT!

Yst I went back to the old high sch to get my cert.Ash,Nina and Husna came along.We went looking for our fav teachers.No pics were taken with them though..as Nina said "buat ape?".Ok then..I wanted to but just didn't get the chance. We later went to eat at the mamak then mula la with our kecoh-ness.. Oh this one waiter kept speakin in hindi to us..We said we didn't understand him but he smiled and continued talking that way.
Once he came to our table and said something that sounded like kecoh..so Husna said "Oh we kecoh eh,sry ah".Then he said something and we couldnt understand him again..Man that guy seriously doesn't get us like we don't get him.I couldn't stop laughin though..it was really funny. Anyways..this time I actually took pictures! So here goes..

Ashraf

Nina

Husna

retart!

goodbye :)

Home is where I long to be

I CAN'T WAIT TO GO HOME..
I'M SO EFFIN BORED HERE!
:(

my routine so far after finishing exams..

Wake up,eat,talk,go over to bk's,then hangout till very late,sleep and repeat the same thing again later.
Shit..this is not the life.

22nd June..
the sad thing about leaving here is I won't get to see my friends for a month.Not even him..sad case.Hope they all come to KL.

Am posting from campus..hope this goes through.
Internet sucks.

The internet is back!
I wonder how many times I'll end up starting a post with that line.Well,Esther is now back in KL and enjoying herself.I on the other hand am still in Miri, all alone with no one to talk to..much.
This week has been crazy.4days in a row I had friends who celebrated their bday.

Ker and Kar-27th
PeiHann-28th
Sam and Samuel-29th
Jawad-30th.

I wished them but didn't get any of them anything.Sry ya. :)
Thursday night before Esther went back we had our "fun time" at Nadun's place before leaving for the airport.It was reallllly fun..I think I had too much fun.I had 3 assignments due the very next day but had not started on even a single one that time..it was about 7ish in the evening..due time 5pm the next day.
I had referencing, a news report and a couple of thousand word argument essay. :/
OK, so we had fun, sent Esther, ended up in the mall for a few minutes then went home and it was already 10 ish.Then we went out for dinner and then went over to Samuel's place to wish him..that was already 12ish..assignment..only one done. (did it in before dinner).

At Samuel's we played around, the guys were drinking and I was running all around trying to avoid getting beer thrown at me..BK was there protecting me at one point when Vik (from Bangsar) was gonna pour beer on me..so sweet!Oh oh..Ben was online chattin with BK, I was there but didn't know..and then he said that I was missing and I continued on.Bk, called, then Ben picked up and continued playing around saying I was not around and they can't find me...haha.

He actually came all the way here to look for me!
So nice!!
When we met at his place (which is also Samuel's place) he kept asking where I was and why didn't I reply him when he asked me where I was in the msg..I was also playing along but didn't tell him that.
:)
He's so sweet!

K k enough mushy stuff, erm so Friday was Samuel's party.I had an OK time then went to the club.Boy I wished I didn't go..it was super boring and BK didn't go..he got left behind after going missing for god knows how long.Even I couldn't find him what more his close friends.

Yst was boring,today is boring.I still havent received a single text from yg aku syg but then patience is a virtue they say..but I'm an impatient person so I'm started to get annoyed.I havent seen him since Sat!
but now I have to go study..finals is next week. :(
bye for now..wish me luck ok.

oh btw I have pictures that can't be uploaded!
forever like this kan.

Internet dunzo

The internet is back!Finally after ages now it's better.
Good news for me,next sem I'll be rooming with Esther.I hope things go well though..I don't want us to get sick of each other and end up fighting and all that.
So I pay less,and have my good friend right next to me alot.We've made plans to paint the room,buy important and not so important things.Getting a divider or erm..something la. :)

Yest I finally spoke to YeeYin after god know how long.I haven't seen that girl since before I left for New Zealand!We only realized that last night after a friend who got tired of me talking on the phone asked.I made all the guys who were with me say hi to her.hahaa

Today,not a good day.It's a Friday night and again I'm home in my room,going to sleep soon.Tomorrow I shall go out and have fun and I WILL have fun.Won't let that person destroy my night.This time I will not hesitate to do anything to her if she ruins things for me.Don't ask..I know you guys don't know what I'm talking about but that's how it's going to be.

I'm starting to think there's no point of me blogging since the net here sucks like hell but then again blogging will be much easier in the next two months.
Oh I'll be leaving Miri for Kl on the 22nd of June and am hoping to watch ManUtd when they come down.My dad completely forgot and thought I won't want to go..HOW IS THAT?

Things are ok now with me and that guy who hurt me.I'm already talking to him a little and am talking to his gf.Even dancing with her.Ceh Kathleen.. :P
I'm trying to be the bigger person,be matured and let things go..so that's whats happening.
Something Esther said to me did bring back memories..
"I thought and still think that you guys are a perfect match".

We'll see what happens in the future ya..but for now I just want to mend the friendship.

hah the ass

I have nothing much to say but to tell you my friends that..I've found someone new who's actually a better person in many ways but..this time things are going to be different.

BTW..
Look to the right of my blog and you'll see the chat box where an asshole wrote how Mass Comm is only for people who aren't smart enough for anything else.Wow..that is a real smart statement by someone who is chicken enough to not put his/her own name.
Ass,who do u think makes movies,edits them and directs actors and actresses?What about the newspaper u read?People come out from Mass Comm and work under newppr companies.I don't think I should elaborate on how broad of a course it is..you can go anywhere with a mass comm deg...sure its ntg scientific or calculative..so what?We're a creative bunch.

What do u think Mass Comm is all about or you're just guessing that it's all about pretty gadgets and pretty buttons?
So u consider those who do engineering or wtv else to be smart?You're bloody wrong.

I don't knw why people like you make comments like that.I find it so childish,immature la kan.By writing this also makes me sink to your level..but whatever.Go ahead, say more if u wish.
Have fun doing it. :)

It's not too late

THIS WAS MEANT TO BE POSTED A TWO WEEKS AGO! but due to the poor internet connection,it is only posted now.


I lied!
I have pictures NOW so I'll be able to show them. :)

Last week was a busy week.I went for a one day road trip to Brunei with a few people then went back to KL on Friday and got back to Miri on Sunday.
It took us about 2hours to get to Brunei.Let me tell you,it's easy to smuggle people into Brunei.They don't even check who's in the car before stamping the passport.What's the use of having an immigration booth then?
People I tell you..

So only Esther,Navin,Sam and I went on the trip as the others were either away or having classes since they're in Foundation.*pity pity
Esther brought her camera but didn't charge it and didn't bring her international adapter so that meant hell for not just her but all of us.You see,the night before we went clubbing (it was boring) and some of us made her come..we begged..Hasnat begged..not me!So in turn she blamed us for her camera not being able to be charged in time.

Anyway..so off we went and as soon as we got to Brunei,we had to go look for an adapter for her.Thank God we did..so now for pictures,there's going to be a lot.. courtesy of Esther.

On the way to Brunei

Immigration!
Oh btw..the toll price is funny.According to Sam,
you have to pay rm10 and 3brunei dollars..
and let's say you don't have brunei dollars and pay with ringgit or wtv,they wont' give you your change. : /

Brunei notes!

The mosque.
No we did not go in.

So after getting the almighty adaptor,we went looking for a place to charge the camera..we founf one-Coffee Bean!So off we went,sat there for an hour or more.While there,we went to the loo,Sam slept off and even started snoring,Esther was camwhoring,Navin was trying to call Nisha,while I sat there,complained about the drink and watched Astro!

At coffee bean :)

Oh hoho..you're not allowed to smoke in public!hah.
Kesian my friends,they left me in Coffee Bean to go smoke.So right before they could even light their ciggs,they saw a big ass sign (not the one on top) saying your not allowed to smoke,not even light a naked fired.lol!
Nisha,who stays in Brunei said that you should just go ahead and smoke anyway..even the cops do that..WE SAW!

Sam.Right outside Coffee Bean was a dataran so we decided to do the jump shots..tak jadi bah.pfft!what a waste of energy under the freaking hot sun. :P

This somehow reminds me of Kuantan.

We met Nisha after an doing our jumps, then she told us about Kampung Air where we can go for boat rides.She did warn us about the fare and how some of these people will con us..
hehe..too bad for them we came prepared.

Boat ride costs $10 for a 20min ride
and $15 for an hour ride and you might even get to see crocodiles.
So ofcourse we picked the $15..this is after a couple minutes of coaxing by Esther and the boatman.
Honestly I was a lil scared but did want to go..the only thing I was worried about is spending so much.My inner triftiness came out.

Meet Sam..he refers to himself as Uncle Sam.He's from Kalimantan.

This is Esther Tan a.k.a my mummy from Subang!,my partner in everything I do here.

and me..Oh did I mention I have braces now?
and a new piercing.
:)
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during the boat ride

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after the boat ride

We hit the mall,again after the boat ride..we were hungry (I'm always hungry here) so we went to check out the place Esther recommended..

JollyBee

so after our "dinner" we took a few more pictures before leaving Brunei.

That's all for now.Will update some other time ya.
Sry.This blog is kinda dead now that I'm here.
Oh btw..new things in my life...
I got hurt AGAIN..heart I mean..but now I'm okay cos I've met someone new who's a totally different person.Someone everyone knows is a nice guy aswell.We'll see how things go with this one..won't rush.Friend friend dahulu. :)

till next time.
all the best my friends in whatever u do.
don't let ppl eff with your life.

Neglected!

I know I know I've not been updating.What's the point of having a blog ae.
It's been 6weeks since my last post..bloody long time but it kinda feels longer.I feel like I've been here in Miri for more than 7weeks (6weeks of classes and one week of orientation).

Thank God I went for orientation,thank God I made many friends during that one week and thank God I'm still friends with all of those I made friends with.
Of course I've made more friends after that one week..I now talk to almost everyone in my classes.Mass Communication class here is small so it's easier to make friends with everyone.
We've done our first production which is a Mini Documentary on Curtin University,promoting it and all that.
It was hectic.Now for you non Mass Communication students,when you see us carrying cameras around and shooting and all that you'd think,"Wah so cool,looks so fun,seems easier than what I'm doing"..you are soooooooo wrong.
You know how tiring it is being a Mass Communication student?You'd be carrying heavy equipment around,walking/shooting under the hot sun and getting sun burnt (hint hint).
In mass communication there are no formulas to memorize or equations to do.We have to be able to set up equipment,we have to be creative all the time and ensuring that what we write,what we shoot and edit is the best.

Next week will be the start of my two weeks break but it means work work work for us Mass Comm students.No rest.I have two assignments due right after the break.One sound scape which is recording sounds then editing, and a treatment oh and I have to work on another shoot.
Die!
Honestly,I've said nothing nice about the course have I?But it is really nice..the FTV lectures are cool (this is film/tv) while the others are just ok.It's a lot of work but it's fun at the same time.You learn a lot of things and when you finish your work,the end product will usually surprise you.Who knew you could actually do all that stuff..fun la actually.

Anyways..I have no pictures to show you! :(
My mom didn't want me to bring the camera along..I now have my hp but I can't seem to connect it to this laptop.I will take some from Esther and show you guys k.I wana show you all of my new kawan kawan.They are all seriously the best people to have around.I'm really glad to have them as friends..
oHohoh..hahaha..Kathleen is proud to say that she has started clubbing and loves it!this is minus raids.I've been there a few times and it was raided twice when I was there..haha.No I'm not the one attracting the cops.They are just effed up. :)

We might be going again this weekend.We have to though...it's the last weekend we're all going to be together before a few go back home.I'll be going back too,on the 10th till the 12th.Very short ae.Dad forgot that I had two weeks instead of just one week break..but it's ok.I have work to do anyways.

I have lot's more to say but if I continue then this will end up an essay!
I promise I will put up pictures by this weekend.I promise and this time will actually fulfill the promise k.

Miss you Alana..sry we've been out of contact.
but i'm looking forward to seeing you and Ashraf when I'm back.

Greetings from Miri!

I'm in Miri and it ain't fun.
I'm in Miri and it's crawling with stray dogs.
I'm in Miri and the people drive so slow.
I'm in Miri and I'm lonely
I'm in Miri and leaving near Uni.
I'm in Miri and I've made a few good friends.

:)

Boring hor?
Miri is exactly what my brother and all the other people who said "HUH?Why all the way in Sarawak" said it would be like.No,I'm not surrounded by a jungle but it still doesn't help my case now does it?
Too many mosquitoes and too many dogs.

My friends and I were at DPS(shop by our area) having our dinner when a couple of stray dogs came to us.Fucking shit.Hui was freaking out but Esther was telling us to "chill,don't let them think you're afraid".Next minute,Esther started freaking out pulak.Aihseh.
When we were walking to another shop,the girls decided that walking very close to the brave Esther would prevent the dogs from disturbing them.Share the braveness?
Well that didn't work.Hui stepped on my slipper,it went flying and Esther started screaming,thinking it was the dog.hahahaha.

Esther Esther.
Chill la bobo.(quoting the brave one)

I have no pictures to show you just like most of the time.I didn't bring the camera along and my handphone was left behind while the old nokia is with me.*cries
I'll definitely bring next time.
I'll show you how it is here..see if you'll come here yourself.

So I made a few friends,they are really good people,really nice and crazy as well la.Perfect for me.I'm really glad I got to make friends with them (Jawad,Hui,Esther,Ning,Eric,Nan,Sam,Ming Cher,Jj and Ke Yan..got others la but i'm not close to them like these people)
Tonight we (Esther and I) might go meet up with Sam and Nan again.Honestly I'm super tired now but I do want to go out.'
I'll say more next time. :)

I don't like Miri but I like/love the people I've met here.

My dear kawan-kawan back in their comfort zone,
I miss you guys a whole lot..but then no word from any of you doesn't make things erm..great.
I'm sorry I couldn't catch up with any of you before leaving.Majority weren't around also..I'll see you guys next month then.

I Miss you Alana and good luck.
btw..not many hot guys at Uni la!!
Cheeky bastards but I haven't seen any good looking guys.It's ok for me though,I'm on a bf diet. :P

Cage

Tomorrow is the day,
Cage cage cage.
After a month,now it's finally time.

By the way,after complaning about the Uni,
I GOT ACCEPTED!
the letter will be coming tomorrow.
:)
now I have to pray that it's not a bad place to be at.
one year.
just one year
Kathleen,you can do it!

oh according to my brother's friend,there are lots of house parties at the Uni.
hope I'll be joining that too.hehe

Butterfly Effect

flap flap flap...




flap flap flap....





As I turned on the laptop,butterflies were busy flying around in my stomach.This usually happens when I'm waiting for an important email.So as I click on the "MSN Today" to see what mail pops up there..BANG!Butterflies die die die.

As I opened Facebook,and now checking my list of friends,the butterflies start acting up again.WHY?

This are a few moments/times the so called butterfly effect occurs.

1.Almost every time I turn on the computer.
2.When I go somewhere new for the first time.
3.When I recently had to get my teeth extracted..I hate injections.
4.Exams
5.Attending some event/social gathering where I know no one,or maybe I do but the pressure to look my best will bring about the butterflies in me.
6.Going back to Kuantan,especially when I'm going to see my friends.
7.First day of school.Yes even to the school I've been going to for years (this is way back then).The day before school starts will enhance the effect as I would often dream that I end up in school with no books,bag,and my shoes are not clean,and my nails are not cut.
8.Getting on the plane..and worst of all..the LANDING.this is when I'll be munching on sweets so that my ears wont get blocked up like crazy.IT HURTS!
9.Going out on dates..doesn't matter if the guy is my bf or just "I like you,you like me so let's hangout".
10.When nature calls...Big time.(sometimes ok)

So those are just a few examples.
I'm sure there are more times like this but I just can't be arsed to think about it and tell you. :)
I'll spare you for now.


Today is a public holiday which makes no difference to me cos well,it's still the same as any other day since I have no life.
Called Curtin again today because they were suppose to tell me if i'm accepted by TODAY.So when someone tells you "Miss,do call us on monday as we'll have the results by then",you'd call right?So yes,I called and what did they tell me?...

"yes Miss xxxx is not in at the moment but I'll be glad to help you".
So I told this lady my situation and she was like "Oh yes we've sent your application to Bentley for since you did your exams in NZ..they will know what is required.

First of all,their website itself has stated the requirements needed for an undergraduate programme in their uni..which I'm pretty sure I've met.Since their conditions aren't as strict as in NZ.
Secondly,why did they have to wait last minute to send in my application to Bentley?See I sent in my first application sometime in the middle of Jan and then another late two late Jan to this lady whom I called.

Last week she told me she is going to send my application to Bentley then she told my dad that no she's not sending it to Bentley because she will just refer it to someone at their campus here in M'sia.You follow me?
Now today,she told me that she has sent the application to Bentley (what??) and hasn't got a reply from them.I wonder if she just sent it in today or last week itself.She told my dad she sent it in last week la.(Lying or not?).My dad got really pissed off with her after telling him that my brothers application has to be looked at again by some person there as they think my brother's grades were "weak".Why the ""?Well my brother gained 93 credits out of 120 credits that he is able to get from NCEA L1.The passing mark is 80/120.So you tell me how is it that they think my brother didn't do so well?I think he did just fine.Nobody aims to get more than 90 over there as they just need the 80 to get into the next year of high school.Oh and this is after telling my dad last week that they have already accepted my brother into their Uni.wtf.
Bullshit la ok.

So yes,my dad demanded that she do her job properly (well he didn't say that) .What I mean is that he was really angry and showed it.This lady tells us to email her this and that and all we ask is that she replies us with the results.What does she do?Nothing!No reply..so we're the ones who have to call her and ask what's going on..this really made my dad mad.No courtesy to reply someone who's interested in you're Uni?
That lady had the nerve to tell my dad not to pressure her and not to push it.WHAT?
Not to push it?PRESSURE HER?wtf
My dad is the one who has to deal with ppl like her who tells him that his son has been accepted and they are already out to give him the acceptance letter (which of course didn't come) and later tells him that "oh we have to re check again,lalala it's so funny".
Oh not to mention the fact that he has to book accommodation and airplane tickets to get his two kids to the Uni.wtf.

Orientation for new deg students starts on the 16th of this month.So let's say if I'm accepted late and all that then what?Must pay for the late entrance fee?To hell with you la.You gave us so much trouble now want us to pay?wth is this..burning a hole in my dad's wallet.

This University is suppose to be good.I've seen people write about the campus in Australia and I've seen and read about people who have gone to study there like Kenny Sia.It seems like a good University to go to.All I want is to get accepted and to just go through this one year at the Uni with no major problems whatsoever.Can or not?

Not even in Uni but facing all this problems.I really don't understand why I face so many of this kind of set backs in my life.I was told that I would face many problems in my life..I guess that person predicted right..but then again,I'm the master of my own destiny and my own life.I will make this different.It will start with this drama right here.

I'll show you!

Show Me What I'm Looking For

I want the song by Carolina Liar.

I haven't heard of the group but I know the song.
Heard it again on 90210 just now. :)
Good song.

Tomorrow is going to be a good and fun day.My cousin is getting married,again.What I mean by again is that he already got married last early this week in Sabah (the girl's Chinese wedding) and tomorrow is the church wedding for my family.
BIG BIG FAMILY i tell you.
The Melaka boys will be coming for the dinner,which equals to,FUN! ( I hope)

Today is Hare's 18th!
Happy Birthday hun. :)
Sorry I couldn't be there last night..though I know u had a good time.
Maybe next time alright? U owe me for my birthday as well.

Now to a more serious note,
I will find out if I'm accepted into Curtin University by Monday.*fingers crossed*
I really really hope I get accepted.I don't care that it's far away,I don't care that there's a chance I might not enjoy myself,I don't care if I might not have a life there..as long as I get through the year with good results and at least good friends then all is ok.
Just one year.
Just one year.
Just one year.

I don't want to wait till May or later to enrol in a University.Oh oh hopefully I get into Undergrad though.I don't' want to have to go through Foundation.Ish.That will be a waste of time.

I wanna hangout with Des and the rest again.I miss the crazy hangouts. :(
We're both not free this weekend and the next weekend he'll be in China.haih.Don't go lah.You don't even want to anyway.

take me away and fly me to paradise,

to the place where you are,

to where things will be alright,

just you and me again.

Ridongculous!

Ridongculous!

Going Places

David left for England and Germany,
Redo will be a California boy in 6mths,
That girl Amanda is back and in love,
Aman is in India with her son (i think),
I might join the Sarawakians once I get accepted into the Uni.

Awhile ago I talked to my aunty and cousin who are in Qtwn.I miss it.My aunt was advising me while my cousin told me the latest gossips at work.I miss work.The credit on our i-Talk ran out while we were busy talking,dang it!
I am still furious at her for not helping,for giving up on me and him,for forgetting,for not wanting to do anything anymore,for wanting me to forget.
I still talk to her but I have that feeling,u know the one u just wish u could see that someone so u can stab them or just give them a nice whacking?Yes that one.

I learnt to laugh,
I learnt to fall again,
I tried my best,I used the time I had,
it wasn't enough.
No I'm not back to crying at night,no!
this is me telling you that I'm disappointed.

I've been back for a mth plus now,this month will mark my second month being home.
January has been crazy.
I had a birthday,my dad turned 50! and I spent a lot of time out of this house for once.
From movies to mamak-ing,to bowling at night to just the usual watching em guys whack some balls on the court.The last week of January was amazing.
Now that everyone is back in school,university and work,I'm stuck at home once again with nothing to do but worry if those people are ever going to accept me into their Uni.*prays*

What do u think February will bring u?
My cousin is getting married this week!
and by the end of this year,I'll be an aunty :D
anak Sharon Paul dan Rusdi Ramli..cute.

To my friends,have fun in whatever you're doing yah.
Ash I can't wait for u to get back here again..Oh u know he sent me a msg telling me to look up these two words his friend taught him.*shakes head* Naughty naughty!
Alana did he tell you?Want me to fill u in? :D

I miss you guys.

I want to kick some balls!
I'm angry inside.My dad knows how angry I am.
I can't see him or talk to him..probably for the rest of my life.
How would that make you feel?

Malaysian weather is crazy!
When I got back I had no more zits..now if u see me.haih.
My zits know how to place themselves well . :(
I'm ugly now..I have zits that won't go away.
i hate the weather!

gimme ice gimme snow gimme gimme clear skin.

This post is meaningless.It has no sense of direction.
pfftt,going places konon. :/

Pure boredom

listening to:Love Lockdown by Kanye West
Reason?I have no idea..I craved for him?

I'm so bored!

I checked out people's blog already.So what am I to do now?I'm so bored!
Today was an unproductive day. I went over to my Grandmother's house,watched my aunt cook her yummy bihun,then eat and eat and eat and of course do my usual..talk a lot.

So after reading blogs I decided to search for lyrics and start singing songs that are on the pc.Fun okay.I used to do this almost everyday after SPM was over.This was also my way to wake my brother up especially since I turn up the volume. :D

song:Let it rock.
Reason?I feel like it..pumping sikit ok.

Yesterday I met up with the two best friends,Ashraf and Alana. Kidnapped Alana from her house in the afternoon and headed to SACC Mall since I couldn't go too far.We had Nando's and talked and gossipped.I tell u that Ashraf has a lot of stories to tell me. In the car we ended up talking about gross movies like 40year old virgin,Good Luck Chuck..I think u can tell what I'm trying to say here.Well yeah so that was the topic on the way home.That and the whole "I 'cant' and "I'm coming". (think negatively here)

Ash is now back in Kuala Pilah,hang in there!
3 mths left.
I miss them already
:(

We got to have our movie day soon alright?

Oh I met up with a couple of old friend too.
Nina,Ninah,Zureen!ah the crazy girls.
I miss you guys..they haven't changed one bit.Went to Secret Recipe here at our area.It was the same as always,the greeting,then the raba raba session.Yes,since we met till now they all still love raba-ing each other..

Looking into the pass...

Kathleen: (standing in front of class)
Zureen: :) Hi Kath..(slaps Kath's boobs)..hahahahah (runs)
Kathleen: -___________-!

Now u see why the guys will come sit next to them?
Gatal nye la.

Ash and Alana
:)

goodnight!

One hectic weekend

Am back from Kuantan..
I'll talk about it later.

Time keeping at futsal soon. :) (thts all I can do)

thanks to my dear friends who bothered to teman me!
u know who u are.

Here I come

Kuantan Tomorrow! :)

What should I do?

She said: Lynn,I don't think he has it to be honest..and I don't think I should keep asking him.Why don't u call him and ask?

Lynn:I think I just might..but he'll get angry with me..


What should I do?
My only hope in getting that single line rests on that friend's shoulders..He told me to give him time to get it and it has already been a mth.How long do u need?A year?A whole lifetime?

I'm sure they all want me to forget about him but I can't.I still wana be his friend..friends is enough.Even further would be better but I'l settle for that first.

I miss you so darn much.
why is it so difficult?

Because it's bad

I was suppose to go out with Douglas today but I didn't feel like it..So I ended up with Ashraf instead.haha
Went to his place at about 2something then started talking till nearly 5plus.Gosh we can really talk a lot.Just like Alana and I.Imagine if it was the three of us there.Oh my.
We talked,check pics and facebook..then watched Twilight.Finally!I watched Twilight.

Disappointed me really.I didn't like it.I didn't really pay attention...
Didn't like the actress,the actor looked like he was in pain all the time but at times was good.
Expected already la.

Anyway..
Ashraf told me this story of how in his campus,he would sleep with his hp on the floor near his bed.So once he realised that he would wake up with miss calls on his hp.When he checked his out going calls,he sees that he made calls while he was meant to be sleeping..scary!
Meaning he calls ppl when he's sleeping without knowing.Get it?
So he said once he called my dad(while sleeping)...and my dad called back in the morning or something like that but Ashraf didn't pick up la.My dad doesn't know it was him..hehe good thing.
It would have been weird kan?My dad would be wondering why Ashraf was calling him in the middle of the night.

My friend is weird.I'm weird,all of us are weird la in our own way..

Mid Valley with with the guy best friend and girl best friend.
Alana and Ashraf!

As I promised...but a day later :)

So the 16th was my 19th (shhh still 16 at heart) birthday. The day started out like any other day except ppl kept wishing me and hoping for good things to happen for me.Thanks ya.
Went out with mom for breakfast,lunch at home and then small little family dinner together.
Right after that we had the cutting of the cake and then we,my brothers and I cabut to meet the others at Vintry. :)

We were there before anyone else.My cousin who made the plans came later when she was the one who said be there at 8.45pm.Typical Malaysian timing eh.
Finally by early 9pm Sarah,Nicky and Steph came..hehe. Then soon later Douglas and Shaun came. (I don't know him but I let him come after he sang happy birthday to me.haha)

This year was great.It was a small celebration and I had family plus new friends with me.I wished all of my close friends could have been there though..would have been muchhhhh better. No worries,they all owe me an outing.

Right so where was I..well Vintry was kinda okay,the waiter and waitresses were kinda blur.*sorry*.Douglas asked the waitress if they have games and all that here since my cousin said they had,so here's how the convo went..


Douglas:"scuse me miss,do u have board games and all that here?

Waitress: (very blur but very certain) Yes,we have beer,wine,and water is free here.

Douglas:Huh?*stares*

Sarah an Shaun were nearby and heard the convo,they started laughing like mad people when they heard the response. Kesian the lady..she didn't know what was going on. She thought Douglas was asking for promo stuff or something like that I guess.

Douglas:I must have looked cheap lah.

So later,Russell,Sarah's bf came to pick Sarah and Nicky up for shisha.I didn't want to go so the rest of us excluding Steph decided to go listen to some music.The place,Backyard. My brothers and I pictured Backyard to be like an outdoor thing,with the band on the stage and just a nice atmosphere..when we got there..it looked like just another pub. Actually when we got in,it turned out ok..the place was packed...we had to stand in one corner,by the pool table to watch the band play. Standing nearby the band was great and all that but most of the time we had to make way for those who were playing pool..I don't get why they arranged the table that way.

Where's the common sense?Where's the creativity?

Overall I had a good time. Good music too. The lead singer came to introduce himself later on..nice guy (old d ok so stop picturing a hunky dude). The band finished playing at 3something in the morning and so we decided to have a drink..mamak was the next place.We left for home at early 4. :D
Haih.. seriously.It was normal yet so fun. I didn't get angry one bit on that day.Annoyed yes but not angry. Douglas is the only person who bought me a present..earrings.Good enough. Thnks hun.

Too bad lil Timmy couldn't be there.He had to wake up early the next day to watch his sister play in the futsal finals.Good boy.
Wish u were there though..so cute!

Pictures

My mud cake
My brother got it..why?
Matt:This is Rachel's favourite cake..that's why I got it. *smiles*
fyi,Rachel is his gf la.

At Vintry

Ben

Steph and Ben with my little birthday cake.
The whole group sang for me,haha
and those waiter and waitresses were smiling and pointing..
point what point?

Sarah and Douglas.

Nicky and Matt

with Sarah..


Now..Backyard.

Why so serious boys?
They were extra nice to me that day.

Douglas,Ben,Shaun,Matt.
lone ranger Kathleen out of the pic..

Douglas and I

I found his picture,
Thnks Mahirah.
but I found even more of his picture
so cute..so handsome.
I miss him!
:(
I still am waiting for that one line.
...email pls

Thank you to those who wished me.
Those on Facebook,Friendster, Myspace..
Some msged me personally and some called.
I appreciate it

Thnk you my old mates who did wish me as well.
Good to hear from my dear friend Farhana again.
:)

I had more people wishing me this year than ever!
That made my day even more.
Again..
Thank you for actually taking the time to wish me.
Oh and PuiHua..
Ur the very first to wish me..a day before.
haha.
Thanks.

I'm going to Kuantan!
Can't wait to see you guys.
Ker,I'll text u.

I promiseeee

Wait a little more..
pictures will be up when i'm not that lazy..which will be tmr.
I'm absolutely sure this time.

I'm now two teeth lighter
:)

It's my bday ya'll

My birthday!!
The first thought I had when my sister wished me was..hmm crap!19 already.
But I shall remain 16 till I hit 21 and then I shall be forever 21.
U hear me?

Now i'm in the same club as JitKin,Husna and erm..anyone else I know?
I've got tonnes of wishes already.Thank you!
Those kawans in NZ haven't wished me yet ae..i'm disappointed but the day hasn't ended yet.I will wait.

Oh I can't wait for tonight..I'm so praying that it'll be fun even though there aren't many people around for me but I'll make the most out of it.
I'm going to be happy,stay happy today..I shall not whine or whimper,I shall not cry unless it's happy tears,I shall not drool at guys unless it's R,I shall not drink unless it's an alcoholic beverage?haha this is too much.I kid you.

I had fun yesterday with Alana,Des,Zarul and Wilson (even though he was there for a lil while).It was really cool to be around u guys.I hope that can happen again.I'll miss Des,he's going to Switzerland and then England.Back on the 31st.
Not sure if he'll be going back to NZ this year as well.He has been accepted into the College but he's mom wants him to do something else now.Sheeshh!

I have pictures I tell you.I think I've said this in quite a few posts before but the pictures never do turn up.hehe.

Bare with this blog of words and no pictures for a while longer.I need to do a few things then I can upload . :)

Powderful blog

Wait la k.

Till tonight then.I shall blog more

:)

Happy Birthday to me!

I do wish I was there,

I wish I was with them all,

celebrating with them,

with him,

wish he and I were there too.

ish.

but i can only wish for it,

praying for it would be better.

I still miss you.Always will.

Alana,lend me your powerful praying ability..the one where all your prayers come true!

6hours of talking

I went over to Alana's house this morning and got home an hour or so ago.It was really nice to see her and talk to her again.
God!We talked so much..and moved a lot.We took it from the hall to the kitchen,back to the hall,kitchen, then upstairs.If this was a guy I was talking about I'm sure u guys would be thinking outside of the box ae.
We had lots to talk about.The things that happened last year to the pass.From what made us happy to what was wrong with our lives.

I'm so tired now.I couldn't sleep last night,had too much on my mind and was kinda scared at the thought of leaving home again even though I said I want to.I still do but the thought of it scares me.By the time I fell asleep I think it would have been around 2 something.Can tell by the way I look..my eye bags are terrible now.
I need to sleep.Right now I'm tempted to just shut my eyes and type this out.Rest is what I shall do after this.
Been having trouble sleeping..been getting stupid dreams and sometimes real heart breaking dreams of someone I haven't seen in awhile.
Stupid dreams.

Tomorrow I will be going out with Alana and Desmond.This is if Alana can manage to find a way to get to the mall and Des said he can so I'm hoping that's true.
Hey guys,bring ur camera with you.
I don't have any pics with u two..sad really.
I can't wait to see them both tmr.It'll be fun..even if it's only the three of us,things will be alright.Things are fun when I have them both with me.
My sayangs! :)

GIRLS GONE WILD tmr according to Des..lucky boy ae.

note to self: don't go to Des' house unless they lock the dog in a room.horny dog!

Afternoon post!

This is possibly going to be another post which highlights the complicated life I have...now u see why it's called lynnscomplications.

Well,I went for the Education Fair on Sunday and well as expected it was packed!I went for the same thing I think a year or two ago and that one was worst.
This time I knew what I wanted to do,where I wanted to look at and who to talk to.I surprised myself by having the guts to go up to people and talk.Before I was always so shy and need my dad there with me..but I realized that I am a changed person.I guess New Zealand changed me in more ways than one.My dad was proud as well,saying it's the exposure that I had in NZ,dealing with different people everyday that helped me gain confidence.

Mostly I asked questions,and gained enough info to help me.
So the best so far is Curtin Univesity in Sarawak.It's got what I want and I'll have the freedom to transfer even after one semester.If I transfer the Uni will transfer me to Curtin in Perth,Australia.
hm.I want to go to NZ..So my dad was thinking that I could jst do a year there in Sarawak then move myself to Otago.Good I suppose.It should be recognised there too.
So now it's either Curtin first or straight to Otago University.
Oh GOD!which is better?Go straight to NZ or stay a year here,gain experience here for a bit then go which will help my dad as well as it'll give him time to save money for the other two to three years of Uni I have left after the one year in Curtin..

My dad likes that Curtin seems high class and erm has a standard as a University.See,my dad doesn't want me to end up in a University that isn't good or go to a College that is not like one meaning like the classrooms are like going to high school like that or the lecturers are not good.He wants the best for me!
I understand that and I'm happy that he's that way.

So now..Curtin and Otago.
susah susah!
Any suggestions?
Save money for the one year or go straight and work my ass off while studying (which I already plan to do whenever I end up there).
Suggestions pls!

Ok so speaking of the Education Fair..guess who I saw there?
I was at the NZ booth,talking to the lady when this girl suddenly appeared on my left,talking to one of her friends.She I think didn't recognise me cos she looked at me but didn't say a thing..So I looked,smiled and said ,"KERRYN!".
hahahaha!
yes yes I met my old primary school mate,Kerryn Lum,one half of the Lum twins.Didn't get to see Karlisyle though but it was good seeing Kerryn again after god knows how long.
:)

I'm hoping to go down to Kuantan this CNY..wana see my old friends but I don't know who'll be around.
Kerryn..I promised I'll text u and I'll do that when I'm down in Kuantan k?
U havent changed much.. :)

Alana I want to see you!
I want to do crazy things with you..(sounded lesboish?)..no I mean watching stupid video and taking ugly pictures.haha..Melinda Doolittle! *our joke*
I'll call you I'll call you!

bye for now~