Greetings from Miri!

I'm in Miri and it ain't fun.
I'm in Miri and it's crawling with stray dogs.
I'm in Miri and the people drive so slow.
I'm in Miri and I'm lonely
I'm in Miri and leaving near Uni.
I'm in Miri and I've made a few good friends.

:)

Boring hor?
Miri is exactly what my brother and all the other people who said "HUH?Why all the way in Sarawak" said it would be like.No,I'm not surrounded by a jungle but it still doesn't help my case now does it?
Too many mosquitoes and too many dogs.

My friends and I were at DPS(shop by our area) having our dinner when a couple of stray dogs came to us.Fucking shit.Hui was freaking out but Esther was telling us to "chill,don't let them think you're afraid".Next minute,Esther started freaking out pulak.Aihseh.
When we were walking to another shop,the girls decided that walking very close to the brave Esther would prevent the dogs from disturbing them.Share the braveness?
Well that didn't work.Hui stepped on my slipper,it went flying and Esther started screaming,thinking it was the dog.hahahaha.

Esther Esther.
Chill la bobo.(quoting the brave one)

I have no pictures to show you just like most of the time.I didn't bring the camera along and my handphone was left behind while the old nokia is with me.*cries
I'll definitely bring next time.
I'll show you how it is here..see if you'll come here yourself.

So I made a few friends,they are really good people,really nice and crazy as well la.Perfect for me.I'm really glad I got to make friends with them (Jawad,Hui,Esther,Ning,Eric,Nan,Sam,Ming Cher,Jj and Ke Yan..got others la but i'm not close to them like these people)
Tonight we (Esther and I) might go meet up with Sam and Nan again.Honestly I'm super tired now but I do want to go out.'
I'll say more next time. :)

I don't like Miri but I like/love the people I've met here.

My dear kawan-kawan back in their comfort zone,
I miss you guys a whole lot..but then no word from any of you doesn't make things erm..great.
I'm sorry I couldn't catch up with any of you before leaving.Majority weren't around also..I'll see you guys next month then.

I Miss you Alana and good luck.
btw..not many hot guys at Uni la!!
Cheeky bastards but I haven't seen any good looking guys.It's ok for me though,I'm on a bf diet. :P

Cage

Tomorrow is the day,
Cage cage cage.
After a month,now it's finally time.

By the way,after complaning about the Uni,
I GOT ACCEPTED!
the letter will be coming tomorrow.
:)
now I have to pray that it's not a bad place to be at.
one year.
just one year
Kathleen,you can do it!

oh according to my brother's friend,there are lots of house parties at the Uni.
hope I'll be joining that too.hehe

Butterfly Effect

flap flap flap...




flap flap flap....





As I turned on the laptop,butterflies were busy flying around in my stomach.This usually happens when I'm waiting for an important email.So as I click on the "MSN Today" to see what mail pops up there..BANG!Butterflies die die die.

As I opened Facebook,and now checking my list of friends,the butterflies start acting up again.WHY?

This are a few moments/times the so called butterfly effect occurs.

1.Almost every time I turn on the computer.
2.When I go somewhere new for the first time.
3.When I recently had to get my teeth extracted..I hate injections.
4.Exams
5.Attending some event/social gathering where I know no one,or maybe I do but the pressure to look my best will bring about the butterflies in me.
6.Going back to Kuantan,especially when I'm going to see my friends.
7.First day of school.Yes even to the school I've been going to for years (this is way back then).The day before school starts will enhance the effect as I would often dream that I end up in school with no books,bag,and my shoes are not clean,and my nails are not cut.
8.Getting on the plane..and worst of all..the LANDING.this is when I'll be munching on sweets so that my ears wont get blocked up like crazy.IT HURTS!
9.Going out on dates..doesn't matter if the guy is my bf or just "I like you,you like me so let's hangout".
10.When nature calls...Big time.(sometimes ok)

So those are just a few examples.
I'm sure there are more times like this but I just can't be arsed to think about it and tell you. :)
I'll spare you for now.


Today is a public holiday which makes no difference to me cos well,it's still the same as any other day since I have no life.
Called Curtin again today because they were suppose to tell me if i'm accepted by TODAY.So when someone tells you "Miss,do call us on monday as we'll have the results by then",you'd call right?So yes,I called and what did they tell me?...

"yes Miss xxxx is not in at the moment but I'll be glad to help you".
So I told this lady my situation and she was like "Oh yes we've sent your application to Bentley for since you did your exams in NZ..they will know what is required.

First of all,their website itself has stated the requirements needed for an undergraduate programme in their uni..which I'm pretty sure I've met.Since their conditions aren't as strict as in NZ.
Secondly,why did they have to wait last minute to send in my application to Bentley?See I sent in my first application sometime in the middle of Jan and then another late two late Jan to this lady whom I called.

Last week she told me she is going to send my application to Bentley then she told my dad that no she's not sending it to Bentley because she will just refer it to someone at their campus here in M'sia.You follow me?
Now today,she told me that she has sent the application to Bentley (what??) and hasn't got a reply from them.I wonder if she just sent it in today or last week itself.She told my dad she sent it in last week la.(Lying or not?).My dad got really pissed off with her after telling him that my brothers application has to be looked at again by some person there as they think my brother's grades were "weak".Why the ""?Well my brother gained 93 credits out of 120 credits that he is able to get from NCEA L1.The passing mark is 80/120.So you tell me how is it that they think my brother didn't do so well?I think he did just fine.Nobody aims to get more than 90 over there as they just need the 80 to get into the next year of high school.Oh and this is after telling my dad last week that they have already accepted my brother into their Uni.wtf.
Bullshit la ok.

So yes,my dad demanded that she do her job properly (well he didn't say that) .What I mean is that he was really angry and showed it.This lady tells us to email her this and that and all we ask is that she replies us with the results.What does she do?Nothing!No reply..so we're the ones who have to call her and ask what's going on..this really made my dad mad.No courtesy to reply someone who's interested in you're Uni?
That lady had the nerve to tell my dad not to pressure her and not to push it.WHAT?
Not to push it?PRESSURE HER?wtf
My dad is the one who has to deal with ppl like her who tells him that his son has been accepted and they are already out to give him the acceptance letter (which of course didn't come) and later tells him that "oh we have to re check again,lalala it's so funny".
Oh not to mention the fact that he has to book accommodation and airplane tickets to get his two kids to the Uni.wtf.

Orientation for new deg students starts on the 16th of this month.So let's say if I'm accepted late and all that then what?Must pay for the late entrance fee?To hell with you la.You gave us so much trouble now want us to pay?wth is this..burning a hole in my dad's wallet.

This University is suppose to be good.I've seen people write about the campus in Australia and I've seen and read about people who have gone to study there like Kenny Sia.It seems like a good University to go to.All I want is to get accepted and to just go through this one year at the Uni with no major problems whatsoever.Can or not?

Not even in Uni but facing all this problems.I really don't understand why I face so many of this kind of set backs in my life.I was told that I would face many problems in my life..I guess that person predicted right..but then again,I'm the master of my own destiny and my own life.I will make this different.It will start with this drama right here.

I'll show you!

Show Me What I'm Looking For

I want the song by Carolina Liar.

I haven't heard of the group but I know the song.
Heard it again on 90210 just now. :)
Good song.

Tomorrow is going to be a good and fun day.My cousin is getting married,again.What I mean by again is that he already got married last early this week in Sabah (the girl's Chinese wedding) and tomorrow is the church wedding for my family.
BIG BIG FAMILY i tell you.
The Melaka boys will be coming for the dinner,which equals to,FUN! ( I hope)

Today is Hare's 18th!
Happy Birthday hun. :)
Sorry I couldn't be there last night..though I know u had a good time.
Maybe next time alright? U owe me for my birthday as well.

Now to a more serious note,
I will find out if I'm accepted into Curtin University by Monday.*fingers crossed*
I really really hope I get accepted.I don't care that it's far away,I don't care that there's a chance I might not enjoy myself,I don't care if I might not have a life there..as long as I get through the year with good results and at least good friends then all is ok.
Just one year.
Just one year.
Just one year.

I don't want to wait till May or later to enrol in a University.Oh oh hopefully I get into Undergrad though.I don't' want to have to go through Foundation.Ish.That will be a waste of time.

I wanna hangout with Des and the rest again.I miss the crazy hangouts. :(
We're both not free this weekend and the next weekend he'll be in China.haih.Don't go lah.You don't even want to anyway.

take me away and fly me to paradise,

to the place where you are,

to where things will be alright,

just you and me again.

Going Places

David left for England and Germany,
Redo will be a California boy in 6mths,
That girl Amanda is back and in love,
Aman is in India with her son (i think),
I might join the Sarawakians once I get accepted into the Uni.

Awhile ago I talked to my aunty and cousin who are in Qtwn.I miss it.My aunt was advising me while my cousin told me the latest gossips at work.I miss work.The credit on our i-Talk ran out while we were busy talking,dang it!
I am still furious at her for not helping,for giving up on me and him,for forgetting,for not wanting to do anything anymore,for wanting me to forget.
I still talk to her but I have that feeling,u know the one u just wish u could see that someone so u can stab them or just give them a nice whacking?Yes that one.

I learnt to laugh,
I learnt to fall again,
I tried my best,I used the time I had,
it wasn't enough.
No I'm not back to crying at night,no!
this is me telling you that I'm disappointed.

I've been back for a mth plus now,this month will mark my second month being home.
January has been crazy.
I had a birthday,my dad turned 50! and I spent a lot of time out of this house for once.
From movies to mamak-ing,to bowling at night to just the usual watching em guys whack some balls on the court.The last week of January was amazing.
Now that everyone is back in school,university and work,I'm stuck at home once again with nothing to do but worry if those people are ever going to accept me into their Uni.*prays*

What do u think February will bring u?
My cousin is getting married this week!
and by the end of this year,I'll be an aunty :D
anak Sharon Paul dan Rusdi Ramli..cute.

To my friends,have fun in whatever you're doing yah.
Ash I can't wait for u to get back here again..Oh u know he sent me a msg telling me to look up these two words his friend taught him.*shakes head* Naughty naughty!
Alana did he tell you?Want me to fill u in? :D

I miss you guys.

I want to kick some balls!
I'm angry inside.My dad knows how angry I am.
I can't see him or talk to him..probably for the rest of my life.
How would that make you feel?

Malaysian weather is crazy!
When I got back I had no more zits..now if u see me.haih.
My zits know how to place themselves well . :(
I'm ugly now..I have zits that won't go away.
i hate the weather!

gimme ice gimme snow gimme gimme clear skin.

This post is meaningless.It has no sense of direction.
pfftt,going places konon. :/

Because it's bad

I was suppose to go out with Douglas today but I didn't feel like it..So I ended up with Ashraf instead.haha
Went to his place at about 2something then started talking till nearly 5plus.Gosh we can really talk a lot.Just like Alana and I.Imagine if it was the three of us there.Oh my.
We talked,check pics and facebook..then watched Twilight.Finally!I watched Twilight.

Disappointed me really.I didn't like it.I didn't really pay attention...
Didn't like the actress,the actor looked like he was in pain all the time but at times was good.
Expected already la.

Anyway..
Ashraf told me this story of how in his campus,he would sleep with his hp on the floor near his bed.So once he realised that he would wake up with miss calls on his hp.When he checked his out going calls,he sees that he made calls while he was meant to be sleeping..scary!
Meaning he calls ppl when he's sleeping without knowing.Get it?
So he said once he called my dad(while sleeping)...and my dad called back in the morning or something like that but Ashraf didn't pick up la.My dad doesn't know it was him..hehe good thing.
It would have been weird kan?My dad would be wondering why Ashraf was calling him in the middle of the night.

My friend is weird.I'm weird,all of us are weird la in our own way..

Mid Valley with with the guy best friend and girl best friend.
Alana and Ashraf!

As I promised...but a day later :)

So the 16th was my 19th (shhh still 16 at heart) birthday. The day started out like any other day except ppl kept wishing me and hoping for good things to happen for me.Thanks ya.
Went out with mom for breakfast,lunch at home and then small little family dinner together.
Right after that we had the cutting of the cake and then we,my brothers and I cabut to meet the others at Vintry. :)

We were there before anyone else.My cousin who made the plans came later when she was the one who said be there at 8.45pm.Typical Malaysian timing eh.
Finally by early 9pm Sarah,Nicky and Steph came..hehe. Then soon later Douglas and Shaun came. (I don't know him but I let him come after he sang happy birthday to me.haha)

This year was great.It was a small celebration and I had family plus new friends with me.I wished all of my close friends could have been there though..would have been muchhhhh better. No worries,they all owe me an outing.

Right so where was I..well Vintry was kinda okay,the waiter and waitresses were kinda blur.*sorry*.Douglas asked the waitress if they have games and all that here since my cousin said they had,so here's how the convo went..


Douglas:"scuse me miss,do u have board games and all that here?

Waitress: (very blur but very certain) Yes,we have beer,wine,and water is free here.

Douglas:Huh?*stares*

Sarah an Shaun were nearby and heard the convo,they started laughing like mad people when they heard the response. Kesian the lady..she didn't know what was going on. She thought Douglas was asking for promo stuff or something like that I guess.

Douglas:I must have looked cheap lah.

So later,Russell,Sarah's bf came to pick Sarah and Nicky up for shisha.I didn't want to go so the rest of us excluding Steph decided to go listen to some music.The place,Backyard. My brothers and I pictured Backyard to be like an outdoor thing,with the band on the stage and just a nice atmosphere..when we got there..it looked like just another pub. Actually when we got in,it turned out ok..the place was packed...we had to stand in one corner,by the pool table to watch the band play. Standing nearby the band was great and all that but most of the time we had to make way for those who were playing pool..I don't get why they arranged the table that way.

Where's the common sense?Where's the creativity?

Overall I had a good time. Good music too. The lead singer came to introduce himself later on..nice guy (old d ok so stop picturing a hunky dude). The band finished playing at 3something in the morning and so we decided to have a drink..mamak was the next place.We left for home at early 4. :D
Haih.. seriously.It was normal yet so fun. I didn't get angry one bit on that day.Annoyed yes but not angry. Douglas is the only person who bought me a present..earrings.Good enough. Thnks hun.

Too bad lil Timmy couldn't be there.He had to wake up early the next day to watch his sister play in the futsal finals.Good boy.
Wish u were there though..so cute!

Pictures

My mud cake
My brother got it..why?
Matt:This is Rachel's favourite cake..that's why I got it. *smiles*
fyi,Rachel is his gf la.

At Vintry

Ben

Steph and Ben with my little birthday cake.
The whole group sang for me,haha
and those waiter and waitresses were smiling and pointing..
point what point?

Sarah and Douglas.

Nicky and Matt

with Sarah..


Now..Backyard.

Why so serious boys?
They were extra nice to me that day.

Douglas,Ben,Shaun,Matt.
lone ranger Kathleen out of the pic..

Douglas and I

I found his picture,
Thnks Mahirah.
but I found even more of his picture
so cute..so handsome.
I miss him!
:(
I still am waiting for that one line.
...email pls

Thank you to those who wished me.
Those on Facebook,Friendster, Myspace..
Some msged me personally and some called.
I appreciate it

Thnk you my old mates who did wish me as well.
Good to hear from my dear friend Farhana again.
:)

I had more people wishing me this year than ever!
That made my day even more.
Again..
Thank you for actually taking the time to wish me.
Oh and PuiHua..
Ur the very first to wish me..a day before.
haha.
Thanks.

I'm going to Kuantan!
Can't wait to see you guys.
Ker,I'll text u.

It's my bday ya'll

My birthday!!
The first thought I had when my sister wished me was..hmm crap!19 already.
But I shall remain 16 till I hit 21 and then I shall be forever 21.
U hear me?

Now i'm in the same club as JitKin,Husna and erm..anyone else I know?
I've got tonnes of wishes already.Thank you!
Those kawans in NZ haven't wished me yet ae..i'm disappointed but the day hasn't ended yet.I will wait.

Oh I can't wait for tonight..I'm so praying that it'll be fun even though there aren't many people around for me but I'll make the most out of it.
I'm going to be happy,stay happy today..I shall not whine or whimper,I shall not cry unless it's happy tears,I shall not drool at guys unless it's R,I shall not drink unless it's an alcoholic beverage?haha this is too much.I kid you.

I had fun yesterday with Alana,Des,Zarul and Wilson (even though he was there for a lil while).It was really cool to be around u guys.I hope that can happen again.I'll miss Des,he's going to Switzerland and then England.Back on the 31st.
Not sure if he'll be going back to NZ this year as well.He has been accepted into the College but he's mom wants him to do something else now.Sheeshh!

I have pictures I tell you.I think I've said this in quite a few posts before but the pictures never do turn up.hehe.

Bare with this blog of words and no pictures for a while longer.I need to do a few things then I can upload . :)

Powderful blog

Wait la k.

Till tonight then.I shall blog more

:)

Happy Birthday to me!

I do wish I was there,

I wish I was with them all,

celebrating with them,

with him,

wish he and I were there too.

ish.

but i can only wish for it,

praying for it would be better.

I still miss you.Always will.

Alana,lend me your powerful praying ability..the one where all your prayers come true!

6hours of talking

I went over to Alana's house this morning and got home an hour or so ago.It was really nice to see her and talk to her again.
God!We talked so much..and moved a lot.We took it from the hall to the kitchen,back to the hall,kitchen, then upstairs.If this was a guy I was talking about I'm sure u guys would be thinking outside of the box ae.
We had lots to talk about.The things that happened last year to the pass.From what made us happy to what was wrong with our lives.

I'm so tired now.I couldn't sleep last night,had too much on my mind and was kinda scared at the thought of leaving home again even though I said I want to.I still do but the thought of it scares me.By the time I fell asleep I think it would have been around 2 something.Can tell by the way I look..my eye bags are terrible now.
I need to sleep.Right now I'm tempted to just shut my eyes and type this out.Rest is what I shall do after this.
Been having trouble sleeping..been getting stupid dreams and sometimes real heart breaking dreams of someone I haven't seen in awhile.
Stupid dreams.

Tomorrow I will be going out with Alana and Desmond.This is if Alana can manage to find a way to get to the mall and Des said he can so I'm hoping that's true.
Hey guys,bring ur camera with you.
I don't have any pics with u two..sad really.
I can't wait to see them both tmr.It'll be fun..even if it's only the three of us,things will be alright.Things are fun when I have them both with me.
My sayangs! :)

GIRLS GONE WILD tmr according to Des..lucky boy ae.

note to self: don't go to Des' house unless they lock the dog in a room.horny dog!

Afternoon post!

This is possibly going to be another post which highlights the complicated life I have...now u see why it's called lynnscomplications.

Well,I went for the Education Fair on Sunday and well as expected it was packed!I went for the same thing I think a year or two ago and that one was worst.
This time I knew what I wanted to do,where I wanted to look at and who to talk to.I surprised myself by having the guts to go up to people and talk.Before I was always so shy and need my dad there with me..but I realized that I am a changed person.I guess New Zealand changed me in more ways than one.My dad was proud as well,saying it's the exposure that I had in NZ,dealing with different people everyday that helped me gain confidence.

Mostly I asked questions,and gained enough info to help me.
So the best so far is Curtin Univesity in Sarawak.It's got what I want and I'll have the freedom to transfer even after one semester.If I transfer the Uni will transfer me to Curtin in Perth,Australia.
hm.I want to go to NZ..So my dad was thinking that I could jst do a year there in Sarawak then move myself to Otago.Good I suppose.It should be recognised there too.
So now it's either Curtin first or straight to Otago University.
Oh GOD!which is better?Go straight to NZ or stay a year here,gain experience here for a bit then go which will help my dad as well as it'll give him time to save money for the other two to three years of Uni I have left after the one year in Curtin..

My dad likes that Curtin seems high class and erm has a standard as a University.See,my dad doesn't want me to end up in a University that isn't good or go to a College that is not like one meaning like the classrooms are like going to high school like that or the lecturers are not good.He wants the best for me!
I understand that and I'm happy that he's that way.

So now..Curtin and Otago.
susah susah!
Any suggestions?
Save money for the one year or go straight and work my ass off while studying (which I already plan to do whenever I end up there).
Suggestions pls!

Ok so speaking of the Education Fair..guess who I saw there?
I was at the NZ booth,talking to the lady when this girl suddenly appeared on my left,talking to one of her friends.She I think didn't recognise me cos she looked at me but didn't say a thing..So I looked,smiled and said ,"KERRYN!".
hahahaha!
yes yes I met my old primary school mate,Kerryn Lum,one half of the Lum twins.Didn't get to see Karlisyle though but it was good seeing Kerryn again after god knows how long.
:)

I'm hoping to go down to Kuantan this CNY..wana see my old friends but I don't know who'll be around.
Kerryn..I promised I'll text u and I'll do that when I'm down in Kuantan k?
U havent changed much.. :)

Alana I want to see you!
I want to do crazy things with you..(sounded lesboish?)..no I mean watching stupid video and taking ugly pictures.haha..Melinda Doolittle! *our joke*
I'll call you I'll call you!

bye for now~

Dizziness

I can honestly say that I finally had fun since coming back here.So Saturday was my friend Debbie's wedding.The mass was ok..but the reception was great.I had a really good time.The whole night I was with Sarah,Matt,Nicky,Joe and Douglas.At times Steph would join us but she was too busy being the bridesmaid and running around.

We(Sarah and I )we asked to hand out those cakes in the box to the guests as there was a shortage in girls?nono..two of the girls who were suppose to be there didn't turn up..Bloody dragons.Having Sarah there was great.It's been awhile since I last saw her..she's so skinny now thanks to her sickness.No worries,she's going to be all good soon enough.

The night started out with me running to the bathroom cos I realised that my ehem was not buckled properly..so it could jst fall anytime. :P Erm so yeah..we all waiting to get in,I was asked to drink mug of beer by Douglas,he insisted that I drink.

Once inside,we dine,and drank even more.(OMG I drank too) yes yes I did.Douglas got Sarah and I wine instead of beer.So in total I drank a mug of beer and a couple of glasses of wine.Soon after the dancing began!!Joe took me up to the dance floor while Matt took Sarah..it was awesome.Later we made Douglas come dance..soon enough everyone was there. :)

Erm.I danced with Joe and Douglas a lot..I think more with Douglas.At first I was kinda malu la wana dance with him but later got comfy.I'm kinda proud of myself for just letting go,not worrying what people might think.So yeah..hooray me.My last dance was with Douglas while Steph watched and commented..warning the guys that they are dancing with her cousins (me included).hehe.

Pictures were taken but none with my hp.The bride looked really nice and the groom was also handsome.There were drunks but no hunks,there were those who were speakingspeaking and some who were so bouncy on the dance floor.Overall,the night was awesome..

After the dinner,we headed over to Subang for mamak.Only me with the guys..Steph puked and nicky was too tired while Sarah had to go home.Mamak was quiet..I even saw Syukri,my old sch mate.

So yes.I had fun..I let myself loose,I didn't give a crap about what people thought of me that night,I was not at all scared to face anyone that night.I'm proud of myself. :D

Xmas is in two days!I'm not really feeling the spirit of Xmas though.

What are u getting your friends and family for Christmas?

In case I don't blog in the next few days..

Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year to all of you.

Stress

I'm stressing out so I'm trying to cool down by..visiting people's blog. :)
Yest was History papers.I think I did well..
We had two essays and one resource booklet to do within 3hours.Stress I tell you but I managed to finished before time..

So before I entered the hall my history teacher came up to me and told me not to worry and she knows that I'll do well.Nice not?She's like one of my fav teacher here...her class is always nice.She's no mere history teacher that bores you to death.
I love history and this is the first time I have a teacher that I like and doesn't bore me..ok that's a lie.I know a few times I almost fell asleep in her class but that was cos I was so tired..not her fault la.

Back to the paper..Opened two of the essay booklets and I found that there were a couple of I could actually do..but I picked the ones I did before and another which I have a lot of facts on.So yes..I think I did well.I must pass all of them.I can't afford to loose the credits if not then I don't pass L3 at all..what a waste of time then.

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I was thinking that I am going to miss being in Queenstown.This thought shocked me as it would have to my family.Why?I have always been the negative thinker and always complaining about being here and always say I can't wait to go home.Now, I kinda feel sad because by leaving here I wouldn't get to see all my workmates anymore.I can't see Reshma and Adrienne's baby, I can't attend Darlyn and Alex's wedding and I won't hear Redo calling me "kid" and Aman calling the same thing as Redo but in Hindi..and I just wont see them...anymore?I'll be in Malaysia and they'll be here.It won't be the same.I won't see them whenever I go to that store near my house or even during the long weekends. :(
I am happy that I'm going home..I'm glad but I'll miss being here.I don't like Qtwn that much, it's just the people that I made friends with.

I think that I like being away from Malaysia..yeah.I think that's it.I miss my family and friends back home so much but I still like being in a different place not having to worry about people judging me because of what I wear..especially because I've tanned skin,i'm brown thanks to the many sunburns, and so they think I'm a Malay girl.That's ridiculous..Maybe I should wear a crucifix all the time?Maybe I should just tattoo a cross on my forehead?
I hate it...Sometimes I just ignore but the more those Malay ladies with tudung acting all so high and mighty look at me and me knowing that they're judging me..I just feel like yelling at them or laying the smack down on them.Maybe go all THE ROCK on them.wtf.
I remember this one time I was out with my dad at Giant.I was wearing shorts and sleeveless top or something like that when I passed by this tudung wearing lady who was selling like those Islam stuff..and when I passed her she looked at me and then called me...she said something la but I was walking, trying to keep up with my dad.Why should I layan her anyway.Fool.
Geram I tell you.
That wasn't all..later when we came back down she looked at me again with that "you should be ashamed" look.I told my dad of course about the lady as we were passing her,my dad stared at her and told me to just buat bodoh la..stupid people think everyone brown is like them.
Once in camp,I was 7 and we had to go for dinner.We had to dress nicely la..so malays must use their traditional clothes.I went,jeans and shirt (I have no traditional clothes whatsoever) and met this girl who was in my group and she said "Eh you ni apesal tak pakai baju kurung?Kan cikgu kata mesti pakai..kena la you nanti."I was like wtf (I didn't use swear words then but then..yea)I told her I wasn't Malay and so obviously wouldn't have to use it..she didn't believe me of course.Pissed off I walked away.

I should think that she being in my group and knowing my name would make it obvious to her..plus my cacat use of Bm at that time.

but nvm..it's alright.I can't blame them.I am the way I am,brown and maybe look like a malay to many.
It's ok..It's alright.I don't blame you.

End of topic..ish sensitive nye!
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So when I go home I'll have to face that again..oh and you know guys here don't do that irritating mouse like sounds guys back home do when they see pretty girls.That's nice..all they do here is call you and I don't know..but that's it la.
Before I finish..I really am going to miss being here but I have the feeling that this isn't goodbye.I think I'm coming back here..maybe next year?If things don't work out for Nic in school then maybe she'll have to come back here.
Maybe that will be nice..or not.I must not worry now..I should look forward to Sydney,Singapore and then home. :)

I have a knot in my head,too much stress

I was dreaming of history facts,I was dreaming of being away from the people here,

I'm definitely going to miss this place.

I have to see Moritz,Henry,Svea and Carlotta before I leave.MUST!

I'm going to miss them. :(

Don't get me wrong,

I'm not racist,I don't hate Malays,I have tons of good friends who are Malays

I just don't like that some judge me like that,I don't say anythng bout u pun

they don't know what I am also.

Ask or find out first la..ish.

To my friends,

I can't wait to see you guys..we must hangout..a lot. :P

Till you get sick of me and wish I'll leave again. :)

Hare,remember you must come meet me alright?It's a date..bluek.

and Mohd Ashraf..I hate you now.I tau u tak baca nih but it's ok..I still hate you.

Twilight date still on k eventhough I hate you..be my driver.

;)

Twilight update

Just read Ashraf's message and he said that..

TWILIGHT is coming out on the 29th of this month in Malaysia. :(

HOW???wait for me la Ash..u promised to watch with me..but noooo he's going with Zureen pulak.ish ish.

Jealous I tau...not cos ur going with her but cos ur watching before me and not with me!

U promised!

Haih..I'll be the outdated one.sad case lynn.

NO MORE ENGLISH!

I'm finally done with my English exam! clap clap clap

It was..I don't know.I know I did what I could..first reaction?I was in panic after looking at the essay questions.None like I've practice before. :(

But then I thought what the heck might as well just do it,get it over with..

I spend more than an hour on the novel,then an hour or so on the film then finally did the unfamiliar texts which I kinda decided to leave out if I didn't have time.

I DID IT THOUGH!

I managed to get through it,didn't quite finish it but It was 80% completed.So now I shall pray that I pass my English papers..I have too.

It's not that easy here.You might say "hey,it's just English"..It's not just English.It's tough and u have to get the structure right and all that..We don't have this in Malaysia!

I've been studying really hard for English the Malaysian way (according to Des)..last minute..but still,very very hard studying went on..I was even stressed out,headache pun ada..plus it was that time of the month and that made matters worse..

the night before the exam!

Oh look Alana!I'm using the pencil case u gave me. :P

From not so bad writing(above) to
ugly writing....

Note my poor photography skills..the shadow.
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So three more papers!

Counting it down..LuckyboyDes has only two more..and it ends on Mon.ish!
His plans?Saturday-zorb or something like that
Wed-bungee with a Danish gal *raises eyebrow*
Haih he has so many interesting this lined up..even has exchange student camp..me?
Exams,then mini touring with the family then we jet off to sunny Sydney on the 10th!woohoooo.

I can't wait..i can't wait.

Guess what?I might do the bungee..arghh!

I'm serious.It's the Kawarau Bungee here in Queenstown and it looks scary..too me.

I have something else to blog about but I'll leave it for later. :)

TWENTY DAYS MORE!

I DID IT!

I finally changed my template after telling Alana that I have no time.
Why?I wanted to remake this blog and all that because the last time when I tried to get it to go back to my older skin provided by Blogspot..it just didn't work.I don't know why it did today.
It's both a good thing and also a bad thing..I'm wasting my time here when I should be studying hard for my exams next week.I'm not even ready for any of the subjects.

My timetable:
19th-English
24th-Mathematics with Statistics
25th-History
28-Chemistry.

:(

Off to do English now..(not as easy as back home!!)

p.s:Alana now I have the comment space..no need to use the small ass c-box. :)

wtf

I just found out that an old friend's old blog has the exact same skin as mine.Her old blog la.
I can't wait to move this thing.It's...just not right anymore.
I want a normal skin with my own header,with no limited space and everything just me.Ish.
This blog has gone cuckoo dy that's why I wana change it..
So the import and export thing has to be done in order to have my posts in the new blog.
And you know what?This is my 3rd post in nearly three hours.My own record..the most I've blogged in a day.

clap clap clap
*pats back*

I should be studying for finals..NOW.
I promise this will be my last post of the er hour..or so..Maybe tonight?
We'll see..

Now have you watched the video(s)?No?You're super lame now.

I have videos.What do u have?

Remember the famous (for me atleast) Numa Numa song..That song u saw that lil chicken dancing to?I can't believe it only became famous cos of that show.Ish.My siblings and I found out through a couple of ppl from MMU Melaka.My big brother was studying there before and his friends made a video for the song..*points below*



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Here's the new one Rihana sang for..ish ish.

Personally I don't like it.I think they ruined the song.

They don't look like they are really singing..but they are the original singers of this song..O-ZONE.

Kinda gay la they all..and that dance!What is up with that?Dragostea Din Gay?Not my words k..someone wrote it in the comment box.Kesian.

But I do like the song.Oh..don't listen to the English Version of it cos it's terrible.It makes the lyrics seem so stupid..it's better if we don't understand what they are saying..hello and salute is enough. :)

Hello and salute!

Forgetful?

Just got back from English tutorials...and you know what..
Yesterday I found my English folder that I didn't notice went missing till the day itself.Good thing it was in my tutor class and not in some random area.wtf.
Today Des msged me so I was texting him on the way to sch and then I remembered holding it when I entered class but then mid way through it I realised it was GONE!
I think some people noticed that I was fidgeting away..and then this guy suddenly looked at me and said "It's over there" while pointing at the floor.Dammit!How did it get there?Did my hp suddenly grow wings and flew away from me?
I really don't remember me letting it go or putting it down.Seriously.
Yesterday the folder then today my hp.Ish.
Next thing you know I'll forget to show up for exams.*touch wood*.

I have a craving to do a bit of a kick ass essay for English-film and novel.Later I have History tutorials (yeah) which I will attempt to do a lil bit of Resource Q's.Love love love history!
I finally get how to tackle the last two bits of the resource q's.Kinda tricky but I'll manage.Wish me luck k? :)

Till later...

Did u watch the video?No?U're so lame.

Funny Malaysians

FunnyMalaysians.

Watch this..If u have a sick sense of humour then you'll love it. :)

.......and they say I talk cock
:P

I forgot

I forgot..

No I didn't forget about my blog.Though I haven't been blogging I have been cruising in,checking out the c-box and other people's blog.I can't believe I didn't post a single thing since er..27th of Oct is it?yes..
Today was the last day of sch for us seniors..Next week will be out study leave/ tutorial week and then it's exams. :/
I'm excited that it's the last day but not of exams.I like every other normal person out there hate exams.I can't bare sitting for so long without making a sound or doing anything else besides reading/calculating/scribbling..and whatever else we do during exams.Aiya..wan't t fart also I must tahan.

Oh oh I did that yesterday during history.Tahan.I'm having gastric problems but i'm not gassy k.Still it doesn't help much with me having it.Yes I'm shamless..I'm telling the world I tahan kentut at times.Well what do u expect me to do?Let go?I said I'm shameless to tell but I don't go doing shamless things like..that. :P
I'm probably not making sense as this is completely random.I didn't plan on posting anything at this time but then I saw *inhales* Alana's msg on my c-box and then found her blog,her mom's and her sis' *exhales*fuhh.
The power of the internet and my quick thinking (perasan).

I will try my best to change my blog soon.I really want to get this over and done with cos I'm not happy with it now.It is cacat already.I can't change my template to just the normal types anymore If u get what I mean.It's just stuck to the DIY once.I'm not happy with the skin cos it squashes my page but I do love the pic. :D

I'll blog again tonight..I have things to say.
Maybe funny things this time?-Promoting myself:
Kathleen has a great sense of humour for those who don't know her..
She sometimes takes it too far or to the next level.Funny facial expressions and flying hand movements are guaranteed. :P

Quoting Russell Peters (I love his jokes)

"Somebody gonna get a hurt real bad".