Stress

I'm stressing out so I'm trying to cool down by..visiting people's blog. :)
Yest was History papers.I think I did well..
We had two essays and one resource booklet to do within 3hours.Stress I tell you but I managed to finished before time..

So before I entered the hall my history teacher came up to me and told me not to worry and she knows that I'll do well.Nice not?She's like one of my fav teacher here...her class is always nice.She's no mere history teacher that bores you to death.
I love history and this is the first time I have a teacher that I like and doesn't bore me..ok that's a lie.I know a few times I almost fell asleep in her class but that was cos I was so tired..not her fault la.

Back to the paper..Opened two of the essay booklets and I found that there were a couple of I could actually do..but I picked the ones I did before and another which I have a lot of facts on.So yes..I think I did well.I must pass all of them.I can't afford to loose the credits if not then I don't pass L3 at all..what a waste of time then.

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I was thinking that I am going to miss being in Queenstown.This thought shocked me as it would have to my family.Why?I have always been the negative thinker and always complaining about being here and always say I can't wait to go home.Now, I kinda feel sad because by leaving here I wouldn't get to see all my workmates anymore.I can't see Reshma and Adrienne's baby, I can't attend Darlyn and Alex's wedding and I won't hear Redo calling me "kid" and Aman calling the same thing as Redo but in Hindi..and I just wont see them...anymore?I'll be in Malaysia and they'll be here.It won't be the same.I won't see them whenever I go to that store near my house or even during the long weekends. :(
I am happy that I'm going home..I'm glad but I'll miss being here.I don't like Qtwn that much, it's just the people that I made friends with.

I think that I like being away from Malaysia..yeah.I think that's it.I miss my family and friends back home so much but I still like being in a different place not having to worry about people judging me because of what I wear..especially because I've tanned skin,i'm brown thanks to the many sunburns, and so they think I'm a Malay girl.That's ridiculous..Maybe I should wear a crucifix all the time?Maybe I should just tattoo a cross on my forehead?
I hate it...Sometimes I just ignore but the more those Malay ladies with tudung acting all so high and mighty look at me and me knowing that they're judging me..I just feel like yelling at them or laying the smack down on them.Maybe go all THE ROCK on them.wtf.
I remember this one time I was out with my dad at Giant.I was wearing shorts and sleeveless top or something like that when I passed by this tudung wearing lady who was selling like those Islam stuff..and when I passed her she looked at me and then called me...she said something la but I was walking, trying to keep up with my dad.Why should I layan her anyway.Fool.
Geram I tell you.
That wasn't all..later when we came back down she looked at me again with that "you should be ashamed" look.I told my dad of course about the lady as we were passing her,my dad stared at her and told me to just buat bodoh la..stupid people think everyone brown is like them.
Once in camp,I was 7 and we had to go for dinner.We had to dress nicely la..so malays must use their traditional clothes.I went,jeans and shirt (I have no traditional clothes whatsoever) and met this girl who was in my group and she said "Eh you ni apesal tak pakai baju kurung?Kan cikgu kata mesti pakai..kena la you nanti."I was like wtf (I didn't use swear words then but then..yea)I told her I wasn't Malay and so obviously wouldn't have to use it..she didn't believe me of course.Pissed off I walked away.

I should think that she being in my group and knowing my name would make it obvious to her..plus my cacat use of Bm at that time.

but nvm..it's alright.I can't blame them.I am the way I am,brown and maybe look like a malay to many.
It's ok..It's alright.I don't blame you.

End of topic..ish sensitive nye!
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So when I go home I'll have to face that again..oh and you know guys here don't do that irritating mouse like sounds guys back home do when they see pretty girls.That's nice..all they do here is call you and I don't know..but that's it la.
Before I finish..I really am going to miss being here but I have the feeling that this isn't goodbye.I think I'm coming back here..maybe next year?If things don't work out for Nic in school then maybe she'll have to come back here.
Maybe that will be nice..or not.I must not worry now..I should look forward to Sydney,Singapore and then home. :)

I have a knot in my head,too much stress

I was dreaming of history facts,I was dreaming of being away from the people here,

I'm definitely going to miss this place.

I have to see Moritz,Henry,Svea and Carlotta before I leave.MUST!

I'm going to miss them. :(

Don't get me wrong,

I'm not racist,I don't hate Malays,I have tons of good friends who are Malays

I just don't like that some judge me like that,I don't say anythng bout u pun

they don't know what I am also.

Ask or find out first la..ish.

To my friends,

I can't wait to see you guys..we must hangout..a lot. :P

Till you get sick of me and wish I'll leave again. :)

Hare,remember you must come meet me alright?It's a date..bluek.

and Mohd Ashraf..I hate you now.I tau u tak baca nih but it's ok..I still hate you.

Twilight date still on k eventhough I hate you..be my driver.

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