reupdated?

Reupdating?


Its been a long time since I've blog.
I'm been on jst to look around but nvr touchin my own blog.
Moods lah konon.

So how's life?Pretty much the same actually.
See every1 is now goin to college/matrix.Some already there.
I'm still stuck here wondering what i'm even doing here.

Here's the thing..My good friend/only friend I talk to.ALOT is now going back to where he came from.
Mattheus is from Brazil n is leavin a week b4 the end of this freakin term!!
I'm gona b alone...even more alone than ever now. :(

Told my mom bout it.I've been talkin to her bout sch alot.Not that i'm in love with school or anythin but I'm just updating her on what I think n feel.She understands that its not easy for me but what can she do eh?
My dad said I can go back there anytime I want even NOW aso but how?I duno what I shud do.
I dun wana leave cos of my mom n my younger siblings here.Plus me working here gets me lots of money which I really need to get me the stuff I need n want.

Can even save up for my own braces!

My mom told me to go back but at times she says it like she doesnt mean it.Sometimes she tells me to stay on n jst tahan another half of this year.
We're goin back to M'sia in Dec.Prob early Dec la..
So we leave here n then stay1 day at Sydney!@!!!
YEAHHH!

Thats what i'm looking forward to.Another reason y I dun wna leave jst yet.
See the complication n the confusion?

Probs whn I go back.
=Which college am I goin to?
=How to get there?
=Braces macam mane?
=Driving lessons
=My heart!

Oh dear..fuckin irritatin u know.
Any suggestions?
I really need to think bout this...really really think.I cant tahan goin to sch here.
I dun think I can jst stay in this country n work till its time to go back.Mom said they mite not let me do that n will jst tell me to get the hell outta here.
:(
What to do???

On a Happier note..
Happy Belated bday to
Kerryn/Karlisyle/PeiHann
:)
Wished u guys already but jst saying it again.
Old friends n not so new friend.

PeiHann..I miss u lots.Hope u meet a nice guy soon. :)